yo dude-- singing off key.. lalalaxx

2011-04-02T04:36:00.000-07:00

Living in a hostel doesnt make u become more independent. its ironic the reverse is true instead. And you know you can believe this when your alarm clock no longer works on 9am mornings but hard knocks on your hostel door do.

2011-02-23T23:54:00.000-08:00

To be able to have the time, sit down and actually read something is a privilege. And I am going to savour every moment of it today.

2010-09-25T10:30:00.000-07:00

“When I get lonely these days, I think: So BE lonely, Liz. Learn your way around loneliness. Make a map of it. Sit with it, for once in your life. Welcome to the human experience. But never again use another person’s body or emotions as a scratching post for your own unfulfilled yearnings.”
— Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)

i need to read this book. or at least watch the movie?

actually, this quote doesnt really do well for me. my worries arent about loneliness or not knowing how to face it. but anw, hang on for a while more!

at least until the end of midterms :)

2010-09-16T10:50:00.001-07:00

im quite sure one gets revitalize from the taste of redbull, not its taurine or whatever content. how can anything that tastes like antibiotics give you wings? sheesh

2010-09-03T08:54:00.001-07:00

After printing out a few of my readings and assignments for next week, i end up so exhausted i dont think i can even bring myself to flip through the readings tonight. thankfully, work starts late 2mr.

my room has this foreboding presence, anyone and EVERYONE who enters end up feeling drowsy.

breather. SHIRLEEN NEEDS A BREATHER. somewhere: not at home, and definitely not in hall. but perhaps in some random hang out place. with family, with friends

i've never looked forward so much to saturdays and sundays.

2010-08-28T23:36:00.000-07:00

omgg i just received the msg that i got into the ifg netball team.. now my worries are gone, sooooo freaking glad i made the cut!! nothing beats being able to do play what you love while u are in university. period. :DDD

2010-08-09T07:43:00.000-07:00

Less than 10hours away from my first uni lecture, i am getting cold feet

A huge part of me wants to appeal into the Science faculty. wtf, six thousand dollars and an entire year.

2010-07-28T10:16:00.001-07:00

I was rudely shocked and disgusted at my standard of english. looks like its back to reading other works of literature apart from Breaking Dawn, AND picking up those pens off the study table

With the slightest hint of embarrassment, i read the word "reaping" as "re-aping", thinking why would the author want to REpeat his actions of "aping benefits". and what the hell does he mean when he says he apes benefits!

*faints

double faints, since im officially a student of FASS. woowhee

some updates. just moved into eusoff hall. My room probably reeks of vomit since i hurled like three times throughout my first night in. talk about the old cliche claim that home is the best! it IS true.. i found out the hard stinking way.. to think i've been sort of looking forward to getting my butt out of the house for the past year

already missing work. hoping i'll settle down fast enough to have time to work during my weekends. will i ever stop the procrastination to settle those non-existent online hire-a-tutor application forms?

also missing all classmates teammates and girlfriends. I havent been making good use of the holidays to catch up with them. kamhei's finally back from japan.. but tsesee's flying off soon! D:

here's to an exciting start of the next phase of our wonderful lives. woo.hoo :)

2010-07-05T09:19:00.000-07:00

i have this sudden craving for Teadot's heavenly passion fruit frap. its driving me insane

and, and, i was supposed to have my NUS medical check up today. but guess what, my period had to come YESTERDAY and i cant do the bloody urine test

i just made a pun. bloody urine test! HAA! 0.0

2010-07-02T12:58:00.001-07:00

It'll be time for my life to move on in a couple of weeks! i've been spending so much of my time at universal studios, its crazy even to think that im not gonna be a regular crew there anymore once my semester starts. its 4am in the morning, im due for physical labour in 5hours and im LOOKING FORWARD to it. does this goes to show just how much i like spending time with my D.A.W team?

will miss these guys. perhaps we'll get to see each other at work if we choose to continue working once every month :p

havent been prepping myself up for university. All these things to do.. with a little bit more determination and time AND MONEY, i'll be completing my hostel shopping, wooots!

2010-06-12T11:22:00.001-07:00

No matter how I look at it, affirmative actions disrupt normalcy and I hate having myself involuntarily see a need to respond to the things around me. Almost in an obliging manner. Its not even my business to begin with.

2010-05-29T09:45:00.000-07:00

for the past few days..

Eusoff Yellow Fever Camp 2010

This is my OG which makes up half of the number of freshmen. there were as many seniors as there were freshmen, btw.

most of the time i was feeling shag, sweaty and irritated due to the mosquito bites i got in my room. this makes me comprehensive about hall. i dont want to be feeding insects every night hmmm

but our group was awesome in a way since we had so much fun together without being too weird unlike the other group. oops. haha kidding. the guys even brought us on a one hour guided tour to Zouk since most of us have never clubbed before :p

I liked hanging out with Yueying, my un/fortunate roomie who chionged to the bathrooms with me during our stay in the mosquito-infested dorm room. and i keep it singular because it so happened that only our room had mosquitos -.-

~~~~~~~

Camp helped me bring something back into my life which had been otherwise pretty stuck on a routine. spontaneity?

and then its BACK TO WORK for three days. beloved AMBER ROCK WALL! <3 style="color: rgb(51, 0, 51);" face="trebuchet ms">

will be off to m'sia for my fishing and snorkelling trip. like FINALLY, relaxation :)

i want to catch up with huixin and the girls. i want to talk to xiaowei about what we can do together if we get into the same hall!!

<3>

2010-05-09T10:08:00.000-07:00

it just randomly popped into my mind that i possessed a secret blog which was conveniently used at my disposal to rant and bitch about all sorts of random people. after an amazing screening of my blog posts, here is an excerpt of one wayyyyyy back dated in August, two thousand and SIX. i was 15:

--- "i rather gossip all dae and face hell when i die, rather than study. study. study. netball. netball. netball. thinking of what to eat for recess. struggling to keep up with my study plan. trying not to flare up. trying hard, alwaes trying, never stopping.

im like trying so hard to accept other people. but it pisses me off to do that because other people just dont noe and appreciate everything about it. its a two wae kinda thing but its not working, at all.

[yes im selfish] i sell fish one mah

i realli realli wanna believe in acceptance, not tolerance. its the people, including me, who quavers the whole idea.

and i wanna

fly with alladin on magic carpet. swing down the vines with tarzan. swimming with squirt. go to hawaii with shinkai. sail the oceans with captain jack

if only all these are reality

if only..... dreams realli come true

if only.... i would be in a world where i can mute people's voices put paper bags on people's heads. if only i can make them invisible. can they just disappear by the click of a button?

be gone people.be-gone.im.telling.you

"people who say i very black think themselves very pretty and are total bitches." that should bring the message loud and clear enuf. hey u there. yah u. got a problem with me? i also have a problem with you. i think you suck more than you think i suck.

FAIR ENOUGH?" ---

hahahahahhahaha! how silly (and emo) i was back then! to drown myself in sorrows just because i hated to have to think of what to eat for recess. and the WAE i spell.. its normal for teenagers to be into that sort of lingo? but i REALLI NEVA knew i could be so tweetz :D and i used to have a minor issue when ppl call me black... haa! dont worryz, i tink i dont haf tat prob animore. but that doesnt mean you should! coz i think you suck more than you tink i suck

LOL! how very self entertaining. hey give me a break *rolls eyes dramatically* i was, afterall, FIFTEEN!

and if there's one thing which hasnt changed about me, it'll be that i still want to fly with alladin and swing down (i think i meant "on") the vines with tarzan ^^

btw, i am looking forward to the bbq sleepover on the 14th with my girls! <3

2010-04-29T08:58:00.001-07:00

i feel sadness for the monster with no name, except to be called a wretch and a demon by his creator. how could an 18 year old have crafted and writtened a story so wonderfully!

please assign a cashier shift to me at Amber Rock Wall soon, so that time passes so slowly while i cage myself up in the small little hut with my money float and a good book.

for 8.5hours

and see guests approach curiously towards our rockwall, thinking: free climbing, heck why not! But only to see our "10 dollars per climb" signboard and obviously change their minds. but not wanting to be labelled as the very typical singaporean, they'll pretend to ask for directions to the nearest washroom.

within 2 working days, i have children and their MOTHERS (wth?) calling me auntie.

you got to be kidding me. you just casually call me auntie?!?! T.T

it was thai season at the start of the month. the later half became indian season. i think its because its the holidays in india? boy, are indian families large! not to mention rich

and so very btw, it kinda impresses me that restuarant city has bak kut teh on its menu. i mean come on, bak kut teh leh! :D

2010-04-18T11:10:00.001-07:00

its been a while since i last watched the youngturks videos on youtube. listening to their discussions made me feel retarded and soooo intellectually... inadequate? (see, cant even find the right word). so ignorant about everything ELSE going on in the world. all im aware now is how much each type of bread costs in Breadtalk, or being able to differentiate left from right more quickly when directing guests to the toilet. the only math im doing is to minus off 2hours before my reporting hour so that i wouldnt be late for work. perhaps the furthest i'd go would be to calculate the sacred monthly wages.

anw, i just decided to do this out of the blue:

typing my email address into the google search engine, and waalaa!

project work written report O.O
plus my secondary two class blog. omg, how ancient is that!

so i have my phone number plastered onto wikispaces? who uploaded the written report anw? miss wong? the school? leak our personal info on the web without our knowledge..

MAYDAY WAS UBER AWESOME thanks to the company, monster-ish EYECANDY, non air-conditioned venue and fireworks :D of course, i dont need to go into the music, vocals and songs :D To the girl band next door, im just blabbering over here, since we all its impossible in physical terms, but i hope us guys at the National stadium tore down the roof of your air-conditioned Indoor stadium with our lung power!!! LOL]

Thoroughly enjoyable as the concert was, last yr's was inevitably more high since it was longer. AND, what happened to the hokkien songs this year?

i dont care how getai-ish his purple sparkly costume looked ^^

This time, we were standing at the steps of the national stadium, at the section possible furthest away from the stage. they were really the size of ricegrains! thank technology for big screen projectors. xiaowei and i concluded that the metal railing that barred our upper half from reaching out to them last year, made the concert more enjoyable. reverse psychology being the reason behind this. A more logical afterthought was that it was less energy-consuming to jump while having the metal railings support your weight as your hands grab on to them.

"如果你说你要一朵花, 我会给你最美的烟花" <3

2010-04-15T09:25:00.000-07:00

Today, we had a Code 7000 at amber rock wall! thats radio code for medical emergency.. and guess who was forced to be sitted in a wheelchair, have her lead wheel her through a crowd of curious guests out of Jurrasic Park and into Ancient Egypt??

"Sorry, please make way. wheelchair coming through!!" *vrroooom

Of couse, the embarrassing experience would not be complete without having the medic coming in his medic buggy, in which the casualty bearer lied down on stretcher. and off the buggy goes along the back of house, to Hollywood where health services was located.

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all this big hoohaa for a NOSE BLEED. i mean, it was just a nose bleed. ok, the blood was flowing rather terrifyingly, i admit. The whole time my mind was screaming "was the Code 7000 called for?! damn AA leh" T.T

what was most hilarious was how the medic chose to start off his professional medical consultation with a little of his own humour

"were you... digging your nose?" 0.0

Nooooooooooooooooooooooo (i was BLOWING the yet-to-be bloody nose)

My day ended in a warm-hearted manner with my team manager advising my colleagues not to dig their noses. i thought telling them to drink more water would have sufficed. oh fair enough! those were, ultimately, gestures of concern T.T

:D

and,

TWO MORE DAYS!!!!

2010-04-13T07:17:00.001-07:00

I AM GOING TO MAYDAY'S CONCERT THIS SATURDAY.

like, OH. MY. GAWD? i cant breathe, totally (lols)

thank you xiaowei for getting the tickets! we are gonna have a whoppin high time together. they finally made it OUTDOOR! and after so much procrastination, we chanced upon cheap tickets so WE ARE GOING!!! i dont care if they are gonna look like the size of rice grains from where we are. im just abit worried that we wouldnt be tall enough since its free standing!

ok lets see. movie night yesterday, work today, 6hours of teoheng plus fullhouse tomorrow, mayday on saturday. yes, alas, i can reassure myself i actually DO have a life :D

2010-04-09T08:07:00.000-07:00

i am suddenly missing alot of people. i think about how they are now, what they are doing, and its a saddening feeling that i have not seen them or talked to them for sooooooo long.

i miss kamhei who's in japan, i miss suni too. "talking" to them online for a mere span of 10 minutes or posts seem to make their face materialize in front of me. out of the computer. ok, that sounds a tiny bit freaky, but i really do see them. their smiles and how their eyes fold into single line creases, hahahaha, like mine. perhaps slightly bigger

its a good thing i've recently met with my girlfriends and vj team! looking forward to 2mr's class picnic at marina barrage. then i can finally complete my list of to-meet-friends! ^^

lets update abit about work at universal studios. i pity the guests who come all the way here just to have the rides close down temporarily due to the weather. but they dont have to be so bitchy about it, srsly! hahahaha im not the sort who is into bringing happiness to my guests. i mean, i do smile and talk to them (occasionally, depending on my mood!). but the tendencies to stop short of the happy-service is becoming more frequent. and the only thing that really keeps me going are my colleagues. i dont know if we'll continue keeping in contact with each other even after we leave universal studios. but i guess thats not as important as us being silly and having fun together, bitching about spoilt brats who demands to be pulled up the rock wall, guests who cant navigate their way to the toilet which is just directly behind them, annoying managers or desperate girls from other departments. HAHAHA

A rainbow. well, obviously. taken from the amber rock wall :) isnt it gorgeous? in a queer position too. it was lying somehow like a piece of onion ring in the sky

oh, no guests now. faster take picture!

2010-04-04T07:08:00.000-07:00

im damn frickin pissed at my sec two relative. she wanted to use the com so i asked her to log out of my fb account before using it. but not only didnt she, she conveniently went to accept ALL my friends requests. OHMYGOD. im gonna delete 2 friends per month, starting from those who are like friends of friends of friends. like, wth?

On a happier note, the company gave me a BONUS, which is one third of my salary :D

2010-04-02T09:26:00.000-07:00

climbing aint no joke, but it does tone your arm muscles, something frequently neglected since i only jog. and my jogging regime often dwindle to some irregular 30minute joke

but anw, i had lots of fun with my colleagues and im now a CERTIFIED LEVEL ONE BELAYER. so anyone from my small circle of friends who has been secretly hiding their level one cert, please at least tell me so that we can perhaps go for rockclimbing outings together! =D

hahaha minjie just called and asked if i want to make a trip down to sentosa 2mr. when ur workplace is on some reclaimed land that's physically connected to the same island, you wouldnt even THINK of wanting to spend time suntanning or playing volleyball there. just saying

bank account is growing modestly. but it still aint enough if our slow plans for the overseas trip are to actually materialize.

I have been accepted into FASS at NUS. just saw the huge brown envelope on my table. this is shocking because its been less than a week since my application. i think if u have a cohort that is the largest in the country, you'll prefer efficiency to be on your side. NUS has, for the first time this intensely, intimidated me. with a huge brown envelope. my future degree, woah. and i say future without any hint of uncertainty only because it seems majorly correct that i choose this over sports science at NTU, that is if i get through that, anw. i'll see..

btw, ytd was the most unhappening april's 1st :(

2010-03-24T00:32:00.000-07:00

WTH. they dont even realize how hard it is to be financially independent. or at least, trying to gradually be. how maligning and hurtful it is to have your parents tell you, smack in the face, to stop taking money from them, even when the money u asked for was to buy groceries to keep the pathetic fridge decently stocked up. stop making it sound as if im using that ridiculouly huge yet mockingly empty refrigerator as an excuse to supplement my own pocket. you guys are so blinded, and you dont know about the stuff that im actually paying for NOT using YOUR money. and you dont know about my future plans, what im hoping to save and pay for myself. arghhhhhh. it's not healthy at all to compare, but seriously, why is my only comfort and strength coming from the fact that i know of many friends who's parents still pay for their lunch, transport, shopping and uni application fees? yeah, of course im working. as if they're not? tsk. wallow, wallow. so what now, my pride's hurt? is that it? I WILL BE BETTER. you just wait. but i suspect, but i hope they dont get started on me depending on them to settle my handphone bills. AHHH really! im so mad, dont ever say that to me ever again

"THIS IS A freaking CONSPIRACY" and they got me hooked onto it

2010-03-23T02:48:00.000-07:00

im taking my third or fourth break from my APPLICATIONS. ok i know this is preeetttyyy late, but i've yet to complete any because of all the pondering and what ifs. cliche as it sounds, its passion versus prospects. drives one crazy

every time my mouse hovers over the next button, theres this funny tingly feeling. like, should i click? what if i want to go back, can i go back? im not even moving onto NUS yet, and NTU's doing this to me D:

hahhahahahahaha

booooos

~~~~~

ok, fine. I CONFESS. im guilty of pausing the screen twice and rewinding back a few seconds so that i can see his smile again. girls out that, (woong, if you're reading this) ya' all happy????

its a chore to like the good and gentle guys. they always finish last. it was with Hua Ze Lei, Jihoo and Lee Yool. and now.. NO MORE. im sorry shin woo D:

and why's it that all female protagonists have to be weak, naive and extremely clueless? tsk

2010-03-10T09:33:00.000-08:00

sometimes, i feel like one of those retrenched breadwinners of their family, who leave their houses at appropriate timings to make it seem as if they're still on their job routine, when they're actually just sipping coffee with their friends, whiling afternoons and evenings away. this makes me feel like a great escapist of reality.

and i dont know if its panic or just the spicy garlic baked rice i had for dinner, but my mouth's all sour and my stomachs churning. i need to hurl at 1am in the night

is having the ability to remain nonchalant a virtue? friends tell me as if it is. people who think with their hearts, people who have overly active tear ducts, people who present themselves like they are a hundred-paged book of emotions, people who lose their calm too very often, i kinda envy them

because whenever its my turn to freak out, my body mysteriously runs short of adrenaline like some faulty tap handle which refuses to budge, and makes the water go only drip, drip, drip. ha. ha. ha. immediately, there's lots of nonsense like procrastination and the mentality that the future will somehow pave its own path, that the bridge will straighten out on its own (theres a chinese proverb that goes like that, right?) funnily incoherent, huh? and whatever's wrong with the i am, its not helping me to psyche up enough to make important life's decisions D:

2010-03-04T08:25:00.000-08:00

its a queer sight.. i assumed there'd be alot of people lingering online tonight, since facebook updates that goes "omg, its coming! *faints" or "im not prepared for 2.30pm O.O" have been frequent these days. i thought there'd be more updates so that we can do each others favours by leaving virtual lines of encouragement like "dont worry, you can do it" or "all the best!"

its not the lack of empathy, but dont these statements usually work better when they are said before we actually sit for our papers? not to mention whatever's coming our way tomorrow, the alphabets printed onto the inside of the envelope are kinda final, haha

anw, praying at the temple with huixin this evening gave me more peace. i always start my prayers to guanyinma asking for peace and health to my family etc etc etc. but this time i asked, too, for the strength and wisdom

settler's cafe with the girls just a moment ago.
UGLY! UGGuggUGGGLLLLY! its MIII-NNE!!!

im gonna spend tonight being totally comfy in bed with stitch and tons of pillows, prepped with my book. turns out whitesands library aint that pok after all. i found four books in a matter of minutes, including The Time Traveller's Wife

but first, to relieve the itch from the tons of mosquito bites on my legs D: the insects at jurrasic park sure have a good way of life, enjoying their blood buffet this way

annyong~

2010-02-25T05:58:00.000-08:00

To start the day off, my phone mysteriously tells me the storage space is full when i've been deleting applications. so for the whole day at work i couldnt recieve any smses, neither could i send any

and then, i decided to delete my email contacts. to miraculously create some storage space. but of course, i had to accidentally delete all the phone numbers in my sim card. ALL OF THEM

and now, even as i was thinking "life's still good", im locked out of the room and i cant bathe

and my period came

my apologies for the secondary school lingo, but LIFE SUCKX BIGGIE TIME

2010-02-24T07:18:00.000-08:00

for the pass few days, i've been getting edgy at friends commenting on how fast 5th march is approaching. that kinda stuff

until i realized i first had to deal with my own emotions before i start wanting to defend myself against what others had to say

they say it to relieve their own stress. its not their fault. but neither is it mine. and i dont have to pick up that stress-labelled package and bear them with my own shoulders

what i really need to do though, is to come to terms with everything. and i mean EVERYTHING. it's precisely because i give an entire whole heck about this matter which makes me feel so strongly about people talking about it in the first place

for the record, i've rarely felt extreme disappointment in anything major in my life because i usually set both high and low standards for myself. if i manage to reach the high standard, i'd give myself a pat on the back. if its just mediocre, fine, just work harder. if its way down, thats fine too, i prepared myself for that to happen. and i know very well what i'd do after i hit either standards. (well, except for piano.) but anw, i've havent decided on many things regarding my future, which depresses me.

frankly, i know im abit shaky..

wth, i had my name up there on the screen back during o'levels but its all different now :(

to end this post with a happier note, the mini class outing at yinhong's was fun without much fuss. not much fuss for us guests anw. but yinhong and her mum put in so much work making dinner for us and all. thanks babe for opening your house to us! i know ur reading this (considering my blog made it to the top8 of your google chrome homepage haha!) =D

i <3 style="color: rgb(51, 0, 51);" face="trebuchet ms">just one more complaint before i leave: waterworld all three days for work next week. WTH? missing my 12 dinosaurs already~

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY KYUJONGIE <3

2010-02-15T08:07:00.000-08:00

Meet terrapin A. i fed him/her with a dried prawn at my aunt's place today. I would have taken a picture of terrapin B as well but it kept hiding conveniently back into its shell whenever i pick it up. apparently, its is getting sick of the usual dried-prawn-diet and refuses to have his dinner

and,

facebook just annoyed me. period.

with its retarded applications T.T

i tried out this application which basically allows you to see who clicked on your profile. while the application packaged itself as one which helps you spot who most frequents your profile page, i believe it works just by listing out the last ten ppl who clicked on your profile. dubious stuff

what srsly put me off was that the information (which i accidentally allowed to be posted onto my "stalkers" walls) IS FRICKIN' TYPED WRONG

instead of saying "you are the no.1 stalker of Shirleen's profile", it bloody says "Shirleen Ho always click my profile. Your rank: no.1"

what the hell, right! so now my stalkers are gonna think we're mutual about each others actions? LOL

ok, that was just some lighthearted ranting to end off the night. work 2mr afternoon!

2010-02-13T08:09:00.000-08:00

It is a pity the night sky of Singapore is awfully affected by a large amount of light pollution

Stellarium

downloaded this software online and set the default location to Singapore. it amazes me. finally, i can try spotting the constellations without blindly guessing what goes where.

at least now there's a reason for me to be glad about ending work at 10pm. The walk back home from the mrt gonna's be sweeeeet, and neck breaking

am recently back into reading up on greek mythology after xiaowei said she wanted to catch the Lightning Thief. This brings me back to the WR period of PW, when we randomly decided to use the greek goddesses to symbolize aspects of our anorexic programme. HAHAHA! I can only vaguely remember a few stories behind some of the greek gods and their female counterparts. but one thing i recall clearly is Zeus being the ultimate horny guy, having fathered many many of the other gods, including those of his daughters.

should i shou ye tonight?

and here's a bigger consideration,

should i continue on to grade 8 despite having already failed the practical twice? when will i be able to think for myself before considering others' expectations of me?

hell. its selfish, but i really think my piano should stay with me for life even if i dont want to finish off my grade 8. so what if i say i've feelings for the mahogany inanimate object even if i dont have the talent and extreme passion? since when is owning a piano and completing the grade mutually exclusive?

daddy, hear my cries, please please please dont sell my piano away :(

my cousin's having her birthday, valentines and cny fall on the same day. that's kinda... pleasantly welcoming, since its a rare occurence. yet... unfortunate at the same time, not being able to spend the occasions separately and all. if parents were to issue angbaos on valentines as well, she would have lugi-ed two angbaos hahahha. ok that was weird thinking. incoherent thoughts, as they say

allright, sayo

2010-02-11T19:16:00.000-08:00

funny how i dont tgif anymore. fridays come and fridays go. on fridays i dont work. on fridays i come online. on fridays i dont see anyone online. am i the only soul who doesnt tgif anymore?

at the very least, friday is a tiny bit different today cause i had help out in the market just now and serve those incredulous customers

who btw, think that by spending 5dollars to buy half a kilogram of the cheapest kind of prawns, you owe them your lives. (so ngiao. not even for cny do they want to spend on better quality seafood.) One day im gonna grab a fish by its tail and smack it across their faces HAHAHA

moving on to talk about my actual job which isnt exactly as happening as yet because the park just refuses to open by cny.. i am still taking as many breaks as i am working. but, finally its gonna open its doors to the public. now to face a whole new entire bunch of guests who would obviously expect ten times better the service than what they would get in the market, since the ticket is so bleedy expensive. hopefully there will be kind and understanding ones. because i wont be having any fishtails with me in the park

and i reckon if anyone out there is reading this (small readership mah), half of your minds are now going "what's she complaining about? wait till she shares MY experience at work!) Arghh"

It is a given that everyone will be thinking they have the suckiest job on the planet; that they face the most notorious customers, or work with the worst colleagues, receive meager salary.. and the list goes on. its the oh-so-familiar self-pity buffet which we feed on to sustain our very own sanity. well oh well. just hang on, take things with a pinch of salt and let the experience seep in, shall we?

am anticipating though.

steamboat tonight at ahma's. WOOOOOHOOOOOO! sukiyaki, salmon, bacon, fishball with chilli flakes and golden string mushrooms!

and with that, i'll end this post off with a uplift from both corners of my lips, virtually :)

2010-02-08T06:55:00.000-08:00

im putting aside all my animes and korean variety shows to chiong 出路 on tudou

yes, the 1990 something local televsion drama..

back when xieshaoguang aint yet rumoured to be a monk or gotten married to 715 in thailand; back when taybinghui and yvonne lim had no wrinkles. when the former first appeared on the show, i literally bounced off my chair. the voice at the back of my head went "WTH this guy was actually quite cute back then without the wrinkles??"

still, terence chow FTW!! ^-^

was telling boon and many others that compared to 出路, the little nonya really seems like a baby. both were produced by the same director. its either production was way cheaper back then, or that the director has lost his mojo

anw, its another mundane monday whiled away. though im glad che and i had time for lunch together. things are seriously... neither here nor there, as i quote her.

passionfruit passionfruit passionfruit. forget the mango. bye mango, i was so onto you until passionfruit came into my life. HAHHAHAHA i'd go for passionfruit anything!!

am waiting patiently for friday to arrive. though with three days of work in between today and then, its just gonna be a blink of an eye. sukiyaki, pineapple tarts and blackjack? wait. for. me.

after the documentary on japanese food culture, i'd very much like to pursue a degree in food anthropology

2010-02-05T04:29:00.001-08:00

so perhaps fridays arent the best days to be off from work

or isit?

should i spend three days worth of salary on three hours worth of ecstasy and highness?

一身黑皮肤, 白手套, 红短裤
一双大大耳朵
随时在向人打招呼

他是我朋友, 陪我笑, 陪我哭
尤其是当我, 当我最无助
有他听著我倾诉

梦中城堡里面跳舞
醒了世界依然残酷

以为我爱著孤独
以为自己不会迷路
以为自己跟自己
再不用谁照顾
以为我爱著孤独
却又崩溃的无助

谁能让我拥抱著, 尽情的哭
让我唯一的朋友不是老鼠

i wanna hear them sing this... though its not highly possible they will D:

2010-02-03T05:54:00.000-08:00

dismay is not being able to catch the sunrise over the horizon as your shuttle bus crosses over to Sentosa, because its just that few minutes late

dismay is knowing you cant take a photo of this beautiful sight because your phone camera cannot turn off its shutter sound, and so you dont want to attract the attention of the other 40 sleepy staff on the bus

dismay is when staff cafeteria food doesnt meet your expectations, which are already set to the lowest of your eating-principles, since you're so frickin' h-angry

dismay is having someone tell you your break location will be changed from tomorrow onwards. that way, you wont be able to see nice-voice-guy even when you do share the same break timings

dismay is the need to move about and stand for hours with a seemingly sprained ankle. for the past three days and predictably, tomorrow

dismay is wanting to buy a shoebag but the bloody pok sportslink in whitesands doesnt even offer a shoebag corner at all

dismay is walking home from the mrt just so you can save 69cents

dismay is entering the toilet and spotting that ur expensive shower gel has been wasted by someone who aims to produce enough foam to build bubble-land

dismay is opening the fridge only to find that the lonesome yakult bottle left inside is the orange-flavoured one

however,

joy is when the friendly uncle at work says tomorrow, we'll go to the other cafeteria where the food is supposedly much better

joy is having other ppl who thinks nice-voice-guy has a nice voice too, and these people being vocal and expressive about it

joy is enjoying the kind weather even as you walk home

joy is as you cross the monsoon drain at the town park, its low tide and you get to spend ten minutes observing the hundreds of fishes that seek their residence there

joy is the woosh! feeling you get when you see that the latest episode of jokwon-gain WGM has just been uploaded onto youtube

joy is receiving a pair of cool pink and so sweetly decorated earphones from audrey for your birthday present! esp when your old ones were spoilt on the left ear side

arghhhh i just fell asleep on the computer table when typing

no kidding

going off. sincha exhausting these days

2010-02-01T04:10:00.000-08:00

the ring's too big for my finger though its a size S. so its not meant to be mine? i'll save it for someone else who has slightly fatter fingers :(

what a waste of gift vouchers

"Hey @mrbrown! Love is sitting together in silence and still feeling it was the best conversation you ever had"

why cant there be instant love between me and the guests who would be sitting on the dinosaurs?? that way, i wont need to put on that insanely stupid voice and go "woohooo! to make ur dinosaur go up, puhleasee pless and hold da white buttoon directly infront of you. readdy for take off?? gooooooo~~!! "

2010-01-27T07:56:00.000-08:00

its such a happy place there, i actually feel guilty not smiling

riderships :D lots and lots of riderships

and im quite sure im gonna appear on HONGKONG TV 2mr while their news uncovers how shady park wardens fake highness on the enchanted railway ride

damn, i should have been there ytd instead, when it was the jap and korean media that visited

i think i look healthy in the park warden costume. HAHA. healthy. but pants too looong. i wannna ask the kind lady help me alter~

oh and, and ironically, im glad i scraped my knee while climbing the ember rock today

so i can finally use the Disney handiplasts ning gave me lols

then again, I should take the plaster out 2mr in case the person sees im carrying the enemy brand on me -.-

"eh, *points to my disney pencil box*, you traitor leh. THIS.IS.USS!"

wth?? lols

think i'll enjoy my time there. my team speaks chinese and listens to kpop. got one girl likes kyujong AND wooyoung from both groups. like whats the probability? 1 over 35???

dealing with kids on flying dinosaurs and memorising radio codes wont be easy. but its been a long time since i've used that brain of mine anyway :)

ciao~

2010-01-23T08:20:00.000-08:00

hot milo soothes my soul

i like it when your entire day is filled with stuff to do. you feel... important. not wasted.

training was terrific. we had enough to play a proper game. and we did what we had to do. sure, some mistakes here and there and rapport still not there. but soon, we'll be there. they wont be reading this, but stay strong juniors! passion teamwork pursuit :) the coming saturday may be the last saturday i'd be able to go trn. the person from universal studios finally called. he finally callllllleddd

need.to.get.those.brown.shoes

and wear white socks two inches above ankle. wth??

lovely day at the beach this evening with the girls. pasir ris is the best larh. lols. no doubt. scootering made me look so noob. making so much noise against the gravel. the scoooooter couldnt even glide past 3metres if i give it a single push. LOUSY cheapo scooter brand

i left one of my neoprints hanging in the vines along the beach. this place we call the arena :) not that it was on purpose. but i retardedly forgot where i hung it when setting up the treasure hunt segment

im soooo hungry now. was telling eirene how i think i might be having an eating disorder. hahaha

its gonna be close to 36hours since my last snooze. amazing drains everything out of you. nites!

2010-01-20T08:22:00.001-08:00

my hands are just itching to get some typing done. so here's a short post

perhaps, i should have gotten a sorethroat-backache-eyesore-inducing admin job instead

i was just pondering, isnt it funny that when you're actually sad, you still appear happy because you rather have it all alone to yourself? its like an automatic mode that we subconsciously shift into. its not tiring to put on that mask. its just.. numbing you, constantly

and we rather not share the burden. if not, that would have appear entirely.. selfish?

i almost wanted to join the fb group that said something like, i say im not feeling well when im actually feeling down

hurhur

that was something completely random! those sad cyndi songs are screwing my mood

finally watched avatar in 3D. there were no chinese subtitles, i had to explain everything to my dad. and i ate, omg, SALTED popcorn, macaroni with cheese and nachos. carbs carbs. plus tori-Q, fake sharksfin, chicken wings and sushi. after that still ate dumplings and sausages

must be the trainings hahah

ok now, time to make birthday cards :D

fullhouse 2mr! i cant believe it took us two years to have an all-girls-only class outing. months after graduation somemore. haha ohwell, better late than never huh

and please let there be fine weather on saturday. im not liking the idea of having a picnic at pasir ris beach holding umbrellas

annyong~

2010-01-16T09:35:00.000-08:00

it has been three consecutive eventful days

tired from all the physical activities. i can finally feel my muscles aching after my unforgiving hiatus from exercise

ok. i would seriously consider wii as a physical activity despite the rolling of eyes. my arms actually hurt. and imagine having trembling fingers even as you use the computer mouse -.- pathetic muscles

i paid eight bucks to get seriously giddy from the tsunami waves at wild wild wet. plus to play ice and water around the water playground. but that was fun!

spicy hotpot with tofu AND beef AND cabbage AND valleychef sausages is the best kind of soup combi for the stomach and soul. arghhhhhhh i miss it already! gonna have it again and again. agghhhhh <333 especially when you're having the steamboat with your fellow spicy-lovers, along with great sashimi sauce and members-only brown sofa cushions. i did try the chicken-based stock from the other table, but NAHHH, ours was definitely wayyyy better *drools

now thinking back, i was pretty selfish grumbling about going back to vj to train with the juniors when the friendly had been cancelled. what am i going to do with my moodswings :( i enjoyed my time back on court with my teammates. and somehow, due to the past month which i have not been there for my juniors, i really want to help them. i cant do much, except to go down and join them whenever my schedule allows

so, awesome chalet. awesome training. and awesome night with the girls at rach's

AWESOME PEOPLE. im grateful for everything which i've received from everyone. no matter big or small the effort and gestures (or present, heehee)... really <3>

i have two photos here. those elongated types. i like my photos this way. doesnt it make the photos seem as if its taken straight out from your graphic memory, the exceptionally wide view u have. whats that bio term called again-- stereovision?

hmm vernon took this at around 4am, i think. looks like an album jacket of some strange emo band coming out with the latest single "struggling to be awake" lols. xiaowei's already knocked out on the couch, tsk. mayer looks like he's snoozing and dropping off his chair anytime soon. gabriel's hiding inside my jacket. and teng is, trying to act cool and awake, lols. that awfully dumb movie was all the blame for our sian-ness. was it "the hangover" or smt? -.-

and for tonight, we decided to try something different and enrolled in some hiphop dancing lessons. ok. maybe not

huixin's looking cool in the hat and casual sitting position. tsesee and che came from work, explaining the awkward long sleeves and che's funny macdonald manager impersonations. i hope if rachel's miraculously reading this, she'll know i will appreciate it if she doesnt upload the videos of us moving our uncoordinated hips and limbs as the ringdingdong***dingdingdongdong blasted away HAHA

how cute, the girls tricked me into thinking its a wear-dress-only kinda party while they turned up with ties, caps and longsleeves. thats their attempt to dress up as guys. so its a one girl 5 guys kind of dinner. what the. LOLS. i bet rachel came up with the idea.

and the candles that spelt S.HO were beautiful the way they lit beside the pool. well, that's despite the unflattering initials. huixin's birthday next week is gonna be an entirely different concept. she should be mentally prepped up first Muahahhahah!

love's great. nites ^^

and mummy, no matter how many times you ask me that question every two weeks or so, or even attempt making the most obvious hints, the answer's still: no

2010-01-11T09:38:00.000-08:00

yikes! im dead meat

realized my phone was connected to the frickin internet..

ONLY AFTER EIGHT HOURS

OMG. ohtokae.. what are the charges huh.

eight hours T.T

not even kyou can change my mood now. unless he walks out of the computer screen and converses with me in english ahhhhhhhhh

consequences from being a tech noob

~~~~

editted:

HAHA daijobu~

i was checking out my mums LG joy and turns out it was connected to the internet too

the timing said: ONE HUNDRED AND FOURTEEN hours

owned

im saved. my pockets saved.

2010-01-06T08:23:00.001-08:00

thanks for the early birthday wishes you guys

and the birthday song which you got the live band to perform for me, zoe hahahahha

hahahahhaa cute zoe cute

even though it was purely accidental that you guys believed my birthday's today

T.T they dont rmb my real birthdate T.T

indochine's not bad. go with the girls one day, hehe

2010-01-02T22:01:00.000-08:00

a few days back on new year's eve we visited the MINT museum of toys

vernon took a shot of this retarded-looking bear

whatever the bear's doing to his skis??

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

a bear-kissed skis

or an immediate frostbite occurence right after he attempts to sniff them

oh well, old school toys FTW!

work training starting 2mr. hope things go well. i gave up searching for working pants already. will just wear something i think is smart casual enough

off to visit jiejie at her new condo! and to see nat!!!!! she's grown so much already :) quite sad im a total stranger to her cos i havent been visiting 干爹干妈 often

beautiful people <3

2010-01-01T19:01:00.000-08:00

i need to get out of the house

SOOOON

the only reason for the consistent headache is not the fever but the DRILLING thats just 2metres away from my front door

OHMYGAWDDDDD

OTHOKAE~~

the construction workers must be having it hundred times worst than i do. do they use ear plugs??? but on second thought, they get to mentally prepare themselves for the noise cause they are ones who are pressing the start button for the drilling tool. NOT ME

D:

2010-01-01T05:38:00.001-08:00

i usually post on new year's eve

but

this time its different

hmmm change. welcome

anyway, got home rather late at 3am plus. luckily got father fetch. countdown was... another first, but hahhahaha okay only larh, since there were only like 7 of us counting down together. it was more fun after that when we played our usual games. it's weird i've never counted down with the girls these 6 years, we should do it one yr :)

due to the drinking game we were playing at teng's, i was cringing to go to the toilet throughout the ride home. HAHAHAHA

its rather annoying to be down with a high fever at the start of a new year. i spent the entire of today in bed shifting in and out of conciousness and right now i cant sleep anymore. but i dont even have the energy to watch my videos on youtube!

think i'll read one of my sweet valley books ltr

oh, it was the 4G class chalet on the 30th. got to say i felt rather apprehensive about the gathering due to my rather anti-social nature but turns out i had fun just chatting and playing games with them

think thats all im gonna say for now. will skip the usual reflections and what not of the past yr. 2009 was sooooo yesterday :)

the last time i bathed was last year!

LOLS

2009-12-28T02:42:00.000-08:00

what do little puny 10 year old kids know about anything

bloody hell. we need to send every single bleedy kid of this generation to boot camp

2009-12-26T09:44:00.000-08:00

im browsing through the old stuff on my fb account

all those photos.. random notes and quizzes i've done

boy, they were random allright. and hilarious so to speak

like, what tropical fruit am i? MANGO!! <3>

memories. cool shit :D im glad i kept my old journals, blog entries, letters cards and what not

i need a bigger box for all the nice things my friends wrote for me

someone get me a box! from ikea, those with the metal sides

i miss my friends arghhhhhhhhhhh

went out with xiaowei teng and mayer this evening. ate at this place called Saizeriya. the food was cheap and pretty good.

ate escargots. zomg. ahahahha yumm yumm! woah, another first time. and a cooler one than zomg at that. hehe

and im broke. how im broke but i cant stop spending. i should inform all my friends formally with a msg or smt that they should invite me to their houses instead of the concrete jungle. D:

like, going to yinhong's house for a good ol' karaoke session (without mikes) hhhahahaah woots!

waking up early to help daddy in around 4hours. byess~

2009-12-25T07:44:00.000-08:00

ok, just got back from genting. grace's dad was really kind and hip to give us a lift back to our homes. imagine the taxi fare from beachroad to pasir ris

ZOMG (just have to use this. never use before, lols)

right now, i cant decide whether to watch my family outing, blog about the trip, or just chill in front of the com. yessss the internet's fixed thanks to my cousin :D

i think i'll just turn in and sleep until noon 2mr. anw i want the photos from tsesee before i start blogging proper

its 20minutes late. but merry christmas everyone!

the season of giving. just expect less from what others can give you but more from what you can give to your loved ones. we dont all have to be like pollyanna and play the glad-game. but be happy, smile and count your blessings. yesss this really works for me, hope it'll do the same for others

nites <3

~~~~~~~~~~~

editted

WHAT THE HELL.

while i was away on the trip, my siblings found out the password to my computer account, which effectively means they have the password to every bloody single online account i've made in history. urghhh sry but this calls for profanities. i hate ppl intruding into my privacy, ESPECIALLY THEM. god. i'd scream every single dirty vocab that comes to my mind at them if its not bloody 1am in the morning

mood's all gone now.

so mad i cant sleep anymore grrrrr

notice the mood swing. tsk*

2009-12-18T08:08:00.000-08:00

IM GOING GENTING!

with zixi and grace <3>

we were quite crazy, kinda like a last minute decision. thankfully grace asked us to plan the trip ytd if not we would nv have even started planning

will be away from the 22nd to the 25th

gonna spend christmas travelling on a bus. goodie

thinking of travelling to KL to do some shopping? doing research online now :D

and my mum's really cool. gave me lots of ringgit i feel quite paiseh. she even offered to pay for my accommodation and transportation but i declined. good job, im proud of myself

gtg blog, using uncle's lappy. dont have the charger. left with... around one hour of battery life. darn the internet! hope it miraculously fixes itself after i get back from my trip

think i'll have to leave stitch back at home. his head is too big for my bag LOLS

sixin korkor's getting married 2mr! im supposed to be waking up 4 hours later. did i mention my bro's the ring bearer and the kid who's gonna throw the flower petals while the bride walks down the aisle? goodness, he's primary 5 already leh -.-

well well well nites ciao~

wow, im done with this post in record time

2009-12-15T14:35:00.000-08:00

NICE! new blogskin. customized accordingly to my own favourites

lovin it

cause i spent the entire night doing it

am already hearing the morning calls of the birds outside

well, not going to change this skin for a long long time

so hopefully i remain faithful to kyu HAHAHAHHA

gonna go catch some sleep now! <3

2009-12-15T05:26:00.000-08:00

its weird, i've been having the urge to cry the entire time today. it comes and it goes and annoys the hell out of me

talk about moodswings

i think they hit you when you're bored. the mind goes on to think about any random thing and hits you, wham, right there

well, 2mr will be better aint it

no?

anw i saw this most adorable stitch plushie at downtown earlier this evening. its 14.90 and i WANT TO BRING IT HOME damn it

hahahhha, but rachel promised to get a stitch for me for christmas. so i'll just have to wait. actually, im hoping to get one of huggable size. like, arms length long. u think she'll get that? haha shant be so spoilt. seriously, im lucky to have friends who care so much they even want to help me complete my softtoy collection and only grumble a teeny bit when i request for her to change the gift to a stitch! <333

i think i'll cook 2mr. it takes loads off my mind

2009-12-12T09:20:00.001-08:00

the hole in the pocket is getting bigger

D:

im officially off the weekly allowance since there's no more sch

OMIGAWDDD

nevertheless, the past few days have been fun and pretty memorable

LOVE KARAOK-ing with my girls!!!!! especially with rach as we sing all our favourite retarded songs, and nobody else not even tsesee can understand the weird sense of nostalgia and humour we find from these songs. 5566 THERAPY FTW!!

attending shooee jie's wedding service gave me a really big insight on marriage. like wow, 10 years down the road.. im gonna attend my friends' weddings as a sister and also probably have my own. while every other girl along the streets have probably thought of how her wedding dress gonna be like, how's the dinner gonna be like, i doubt many actually think about the very most important aspect. imagine walking down the road of life with this very one special person, age, be and love each other for the next 50 years and more. the 18 short years of my life seems so short in comparism to that. wishing shooee jie and danny ge a blissful marriage. wow a week later i'll be attending my cousin's wedding. more drama!

anyway, we did cupcakes for her. it was rather a disaster. didnt even take photos of it. the worst had to happen when the wedding reception served those pretty professionally-done ones D: well, its the thought that counts. i even got my blouse speckled with chocolate stains and broke my heel while walking up the steep slope

this reminds me of those huge and wide COCKROACHES i had to come face to face with O.O

prom was fine too. okay, fine doesnt do justice to it, considering it was ninetyfive bucks. cant help it but compare to AHS prom. LOLS. it was alot better. at least there were lucky draws and instant prizes, nice door gifts and bellboys with funky hats.

liked the food enough. not WOWwowWOW, but there's nothing much to complain about it. my favourite, chicken chicken chicken with almond flakes!!

kinda sad vjnb didnt get to spend the evening together as a team. i really need to get the girls out for an outing soon. and maybe training with the juniors. ahhhhh i miss them and eirene so so so much :(

cute suni~

shucks, realized che and i didnt take a good picture togther with a decent digicam. WE USED HER PHONE. ithink its 3.2megapix??? arghhh wasted

but still had as much fun with mi class. hahhaha kinda glad yinhong decided to sit on our table. weijian won this red toaster, im quite amused. heard zicong frickin won the itouch. why dont i EVER get drawn in lucky draws?!?

i was just wondering, does making this pose make the arms look longer? mine in this pic reminds me of ning's limbs HAHAHA

lalalala~ got to josh's house and talked the night away. there were alot of angry people glaring at us as we walked towards the taxi stand as if we wanted to cut their queue. lols, please. was surprised and glad dongkun went too! had a fun night, though i couldnt catch a wink at all. darn the caffeine. this leads me back to zixi's house in the morning when we did the icing for the cupcake. crap, i miss this kinda of unhealthy lifestyle. HAHAHAH, hope there's more to come. SLEEPOVER AT RACH'S! <3

2009-08-29T10:58:00.000-07:00

五月天创造 DNA 演唱会! 29 aug 2009

well.. i dunno how to start with this post

ok, the bimbotic approach then:

HE POINTED AT ME!!!! (i choose to think)

i mean, he was jamming his guitar. the bimbotic (other than myself) and lustful (uhuh not me) crowd screaming for him. and just at that moment when he played the last note, he let go his guitar and responded to a voice. my voice. *faints* pointed upwards towards my direction. ME ME ME!!! hahahaha, of course you have to be smart enough under such circumstances and scream his name NOT when he's jamming, but right after the last note right. HAHAHAH. at that moment.

sadly, the moment was short, considering WE FRICKIN CHOSE THE WRONG SIDE TO SIT. we were stuck with 石头throughout the entire concert except for a few times they swopped positions D: 石头's candid and... fatherly and all. but he's just the same larh!

note to self this photo was kopped from some strangers' blog. the position i was sitting? sheesh, the smoke almost completely covered him :(

still, <333 style="color: rgb(51, 0, 51);font-family:trebuchet ms;" class="f14">
i would really prefer making this post entirely in chinese. my command of english just doesnt do justice to the chinese thoughts that are screaming in my head. but typing chinese characters with the use of only baidu is, well, extremely insane

it was like an escape from hectic reality. feeling alive now. beautiful lyrics which allowed ur mind to wonder, into the basic necessities of life which we all tend to forget, especially as we grow older, see more things and take on unwanted responsibilities..

too many songs to list! though i'll try to mention my favourite ones and parts of the lyrics

omg, but i still cant believe they didnt sing 噢买尬 and 听不到 D: and and 宠上天 and 我又初恋了 !

in fact, only 天使 and 最重要的小事 (WOOTS!) were sung from the 为爱而生album.

the stage set-up was really weird though. xiaowei claimed it was an embryo with placenta tissue. not exactly cool. but well, the theme's DNA, so we can see where she's coming from hahha

and we were previously quite upset they sang until midnight for the previous night's concert when our date was supposedly the original date, so by right they should let us have the midnight treatment right! so when they said something like this time will also be until midnight.. WAHHHH!!

spending the previous night screaming ur lungs out meant 阿信s vocals went off a couple of times, but well, no one's complaining

soooo much more satisfaction then my previous concert. which i shant mention, haha

after some last minute practice ytd, i managed to sing 80% of the fast part of 生存以上生活以下, haha! though i completely failed that part in 恋爱ing, lols!

一年有三百六十五个日子五十二万五千多分钟
一生有三十四亿五千六百七十八--生存以上生活以下

未来某年某月某日某时某分某秒
某人某地某种永远的心情--恋爱ing

loved the sequencing of the songs. i dunno if it was just me, but it was as if the songs were arranged to bring across this message of the power of dreams; at first depicting how we deprive ourselves of dreams, and the feelings of dejection when we dont accomplish them. but eventually coming to a more hopeful closure that... ARGH, i really cant express what im thinking in english. so much for GP prelims on wednesday!

let the lyrics speak for themselves

没有梦, 昨夜没有梦
镜子里的陌生人
已经不再做梦--生存以上生活以下

经过了漫长的等候,梦想是梦想,我还是一个我--一颗苹果

能不能暂时把你的梦想给我
在勇气快消失的时候
总有一天要人们叫我披头
最后没成功也作过最美的梦--约翰蓝侬

就放肆愛放肆追放肆去闖放肆是我的信仰
再不去闖夢想永遠只會是一個夢想--放肆

and of course, some emo-therapy

我好想好想飞
逃离这个疯狂世界
那么多苦那么多累
那么多莫名的泪水--疯狂世界

当生存是规则
不是你的选择
於是你含着眼泪
飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞的走着--你不是真正的快乐

轰轰烈烈的排行
沸沸扬扬的颁奖
跟着节奏我常迷惘--我心中尚未崩坏的地方

这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢--笑忘歌

终於我的生命只剩生存
活着只会呼吸
吃饭喝水--生存以上生活以下

and those from which i got some strength from

如果要让我活让我有希望的活
我从不怕爱错就怕没爱过--孙悟空

卫冕者接受挑战难免也会失败
人生像一场比赛还是要保持乐观--终结孤单

我如果对自己不行如果对自己说谎
即使你不原谅我也不能原谅--倔强
我不怕千万人阻挡只怕自己投降--倔强

就算是整个世界把我抛弃
而至少快乐伤心我自己决定
所以我说就让他去
我知道潮落之后一定有潮起
有什么了不起--人生海海

就放肆愛放肆追放肆去闖放肆的大鬧一場
不能原諒如果很多年後我還是這樣--放肆

funny thing was, the concert ended with 爱情的模样. random and darn 冷门, i thought. nobody would have thought that was the last of the last of the last. (since they kept making us do all the fake encores) precisely why i was so dissappointed they didnt sing 噢买尬 to end off the session!

and hello, they didnt sell light sticks outside!! LIKE WTH, xiaowei had to wave our hands without lightsticks, boooooo~~~

lmao, singaporeans really improvise. i saw this uncle using the latest and coolest lightstick. the one you get from the latest NDP funpack. heart shape somemore, fair enough!

持
续
熱
血
!!!

喜欢他们对音乐的执着 <3

2009-08-08T10:34:00.000-07:00

after taking a nap at 1pm ytd..

only to wake up at 8am this morning.. (yet another 18 hours of unbroken rest)

and much procrastination..

not to mention at least 2hours of bejewelled (to the disapproval of ning)..

and others spent watching tv and stuff like that..

at 1.35am..

i think im finally ready to start on some revision

i think...

i am

not yet...

on the ball :(

i ponder and dream too much on the happy things, mostly thats gonna happen after the "most important exam", as i quote from annoymous people all around this city, such that i have lost sight of my direction.

im a lost sheep in the middle of other sheep who are doing some serious grass grazing

:S

i wanna i wanna i wanna... fly and live my own dreams~

2009-08-06T07:29:00.000-07:00

decided to put up a short post!

and i mean short

i think im finally on the ball

after much thinking and procrastinating

its really a sign

bbt has stopped. my internet connection mysteriously slows down and bejewelled has its server down. im gonna have studying sessions with my netballers

isnt that great! finally, im able to focus

hope it'll last =D

the two most dreaded letters in my life. OMG i have to complete it by this weekend. its FORTY PERCENT of the grade dear oh dear

am kinda enjoying school. apart from the hectic pace and hand-itching practicals.. im great

2009-07-17T23:24:00.000-07:00

i cant depend any much more longer on sleep to be my escape route

or i'll just develop a headache and feel even more grumpy. and well, procrastinate even more

before i start on my IS proper..

the past two days had been fun with the company of friends-- both the old and new.

which felt really different

thurs 16th july, celebrated linda's 18th at Spice! sounds like some atas restuarant? its actually just one of the prata shops at Simpang with rather friendly service. a no frills place. hahahaha, just thinking of that reminds me of how tsesee's face twitched as an after effect of eating those sour berries. she lost 3 times in a row in zhongjimima, im half suspecting if linda had tampered with the numbers. but on second thoughts, i'd just drop the idea cos it aint me who had to deal with the punishment anyway! muahahaha. its just like back to the good ol days where you didnt have to judge or guard against anyone. a sense of familiarity and home.. of warmth and acceptance. boy when is our next outing!

fri 17th july, school was short and sweeeeet. harry potter the sixth! trust myself to have read the summary of the halfbloodprince before watching the movie cos i couldnt rmb the story that well based on the past few films. i shant talk about the movie. dinner at pizza hut. gee, its such a cursed thing that everybody goes for pizzahut even though its not on the top of our favourite food list. in fact, its at the bottom of mine due to the bad service across most of the outlets i've already been to. but the company compensated for it, hahah. this group of friends.. even though they really cant be compared to my girlfriends (of course thats because we've only known each other for this long), classes and school have been made pleasant with them around, especially when season ended adruptly and i had been left so empty without my teammates around. i've got to known many of them so much more better this year. Friends like xiaowei and cheryl, even most of the guys. i think last year i spent much of my time with my team, i didnt hang around with the class. and when things changed, i felt kinda bad i didnt treasure the time given. and, i almost felt like a loser who went around spending more time with the class because i couldnt depend on my teammates as much anymore. wow. well, i wouldnt hold on to much hope that most of the friendships would last long. gosh i hope i dont sound like i've lost all hope. but frankly, its hard to keep and nurture a friendship when we all have different lives to lead, right? which my girls and i have done it until know (and counting) and i'm so proud of each of every one of us!

oh i should take note how much i can digress

anyway, xiaowei and i decided to try out the UFO catchers after dinner. hahaha a pity she wasted like four dollars on that machine with the typical loose kiap. i spent 4dollars too larh. and... got a toy!! okae i have to admit my machine was so much easier cos it didnt use the kiap concept, it was the scoop-release-push-push concept. and the toys were really small. haha eventually, the guys, i think being guys, got excited over the machine as well. teng, with his skills leftover from primary skill, got xiaowei a retarded-looking elmo (all the toys looked retardedly-cute). and gabriel donated a dollar for teng to get another elmo.( which im contemplating whether to give to ber). i guess i gotta thank them too for rocking the machine so hard it crashed and made the other group using the other side of the machine (the machine had 4 scoops) glare at us cos our rock made all their toys spill off their platform! hahaha. but whats more important was that the big bird..... fell into our hole!!! cheers!!! and our cheering made the other group glare even more. which we didnt care (or rather pretended not to know) and left with the machine's position slightly off course.

why am i so excited over a money-leeching machine? cos im gonna conquer their taiwan counterparts very soon. and I CANT WAIT.muahahhha. audrey told me the taiwan ones are much easier to win so we shall see. haaaa!

so being a night-indoors person, the adrenaline made me really sleepy and drained. did i mention above that the hp movie was so long it made my neck ache? and that vernon was so tall, my entire view of the movie included the silhouette of his hair covering the subtitles and the characters legs. lols. plus dinner. argh dinner makes one sleepy. yet, xiaowei and i continued shopping at raffles. haha what were we doing man

okae i think thats all, its been a long time since i provided details to my everyday events.
kinda boring

oh, i almost forgot. i dropped 2grades for my math. a freaking 47. landed myself in math remedial. haiz dissappointed but thats okay lorh. i mean, how can we ever understand the ups and downs in life when we cant even handle numbers. they, eventually, dont determine our fates after all. and boy do i hate people who squabble with the teacher over the change of answer in a bio mcq paper. its just one mark. and even if that one mark brings you one grade up, its just an exam which doesnt contribute anything to the final paper.

angsty shir grrr

back to my IS!

2009-06-18T01:43:00.000-07:00

hmmmm the hols has been so far crazy, unproductive, productive.. and crap, suddenly stagnant with the chapters again

have been procrastinating alot. its time i stop

i know its weird to have this thought even passing through my mind. but im guilty of thinking the A'levels aint that important anymore

there's just so so much more to life than all these that we're going for

all the pressure and stuff like that

its like a dilemma. i keep telling myself im just thinking this way because i want the easy way out

but then again, whats wrong with wanting to go onto another path

i just dont have that courage to walk the different path and diverge my direction away from the status quo

darn it

anw, i have had my self-declared breaks.. pizzahut dinner with the seniors. class bbq, well sorta, yesterday.. that was good enough for me to relish the moment of freedom and carefree days

right now, i guess i'll play safe and postpone those thoughts.

until then :)

its funny how depressed one can get after listening to those S.H.E songs stored up in your com. and hilarious thinking how relieving it may seem to be when u find yourself actually WANTING to feel depressed because its what makes you alive again.

2009-06-05T04:23:00.001-07:00

even though i find them slightly irritating and self-centred

i suddenly want to become like them

they are those people who go around telling people they havent started studying (like, OMGAWDS, how how??)

but in actual fact have already had their steam blowing strong

yup, i want my steam going

come on man, its just 25 more days

2009-05-15T08:36:00.001-07:00

floorball's going into finals, they're probably gonna get mostly everything they want from the school

volleyball guys got the recognition they truly deserve. it must have been such a heartwarming and triumphant moment when tyh was on stage saying those words "you guys have proved me wrong"

i feel really happy for them. i truly do. they have deserved every single moment, appluase and every drop of the limelight on them. just that the bitterness is.. gee, ripping me apart should i say? i would say we were very similar teams. neglected, untreated, yet strong persevering teams. yet, i guess what sets us apart from them is.. i dunno, the skills?

2009-05-10T09:59:00.000-07:00

its a stupid mistake to do a dry mask while watching circus

im cracking every dry bit up with my hard-to-contain laughter!

2009-05-03T07:04:00.001-07:00

It's currently 10pm. 2 more hours into the night and i would have officially wasted my weekend away.

just finished printing out those thank you letters for the PE teachers who came down to support us during the games. it would be nice to thank them tomorrow. except...

i havent typed miss teoh's thankyou letter

its pretty debatable. though im sure if we are in a bad mood, we wouldnt bother to do so and end it with a fair conclusion.

the thing is, i dont know what to write

frankly speaking, i have ALOT to thank her for. WE have alot to thank her for. but these cant be expressed merely through a letter written on a shiny piece of pink paper covered with pretty font and incricate designs. i guess that's because for every word of aprreciation, comes a question that has been buried deep inside us. a question.. possibly like "have you ever considered dropping us?", or perhaps "how important are we to you really?"

i dont know. perhaps it would inflict less hurt when one is oblivious and ignorant to the possibilities of her saying yes. Ahh-- which is preetty high i reckoned!

2009-04-28T07:53:00.000-07:00

i know my friends meant well

but, i have to admit this, im still feeling pretty raw over our lost. and it aint good having to explain to everyone who asked that our season has already ended. seriously, i want to disappear so that they can stop poking me.

questions like "hey, u girls won on monday right?" umm, when the thing is we didnt even have a match on monday? followed by another question, by the same person, "so are u all going to the next round right?". and another person asks the same question later in the day. and after some painful explanation from me, actually leaves the conversation hanging with a comment like "huh, so soon?"

so i'll just assume they dont know how things work around season. sigh

and neither had it felt good with friends saying "huh, wait for hwachong to lose, hows that possible?" and WHAM, that hit straight in the heart. ouch.

but still, there were friends who understood. and i silently thank them for the motivation and sensitive remarks. the small little things that people do, even they themselves wouldnt rmb themselves doing it, but they sure went a long way.

im glad for the girls. thank you grace rachel and tsesee. for the texts, hugs, conversations and support.

and im glad for my classmates. thank you all for the encouragement, hope and blessings. i really really hope softball soccer floorball and tennis go far and accomplish what they've worked so hard for this year!

so as long as i want to forget, i've realized it aint that easy. gosh, i've been mourning for days already. get over it and move on and go do your research paper seriously. sheesh!

was walking out of the sch gate. and omg, all the other sports were training in the field, around the track.. floorball girls travelling to kallang for their training.. and my heart sank cause i've got no more trainings to turn back to! ARGHHHH. im not lamenting, the free time feels great. i can finally breathe.

its just that. the emptiness is unbearable

and

i need time to get used to it

2009-04-25T07:11:00.000-07:00

i didnt get to pour out everything that was on my mind yesterday night

as i was saying, i found it so hard to let go of all the tough times. having gone through the hard times together only made us stronger and tighter as a unit. it was actually the obstacles that we had to face, and the entire process of having to weather the storm, which made me felt so dear being part of vjnb.

so yesterday's match with yjc was to be the last match of my life. i dunno. this sounds really serious. i've been with this sport for.. 9 years now. thats a good entire half of my life! my.last.official.netball.match. am i to cry over the finality of the game, or am i to celebrate this wonderful process, whereby i have grown and matured as a player, whereby awesome teammates from the past till present has been accompanying me through this tremendous journey?

i think its rather obvious a choice to make. while i cant help but to feel sad over this loss now, i will keep all the memories close to my heart because down the road i can only see myself reliving the happy moments and nothing less.

right now, its hard not to worry about the present state of vjnb. internally we are strong and i have faith in the juniors to keep alive our spirit and continue to strive against the odds. but without the support, i doubt that the future road would be a smooth one for us. please please do not let the past repeat itself. of course, it would be so much easier for the school to, gosh i cant bring myself to say this, but alas, to close us down.

2009-04-24T08:43:00.000-07:00

so the game with yishun jc marked the end of our season.

as i was heading home on bus 12, a single tear just creeped its way out of the corner of my eye. i remembered i was somehow looking out of the window, emo-ing while all the cars sped by the bus below, and flashes of images just kept flickering across my mind. all those days of training, bitching, lazing around and having fun. the image of the us sitting on the grandstand being very firm to miss teoh that we will not allow netball to be treated this way. the image of myself weeping tears because i wasnt emotionally strong enough to withstand the unfairness we had to receive. the forlorn image of therese's back disappearing around the corner after she announced she was leaving. the voices of hannah vaguely ringing in my head, saying she no longer shares the passion. the image of the track and us running our 400m intervals. the thought of the trees becoming but a blur image as we ran our long runs. and many many more. it was weird i found myself reliving these moments. the heartache that sprang back felt so surreal.

2009-04-22T06:33:00.000-07:00

now that i've changed my blog url, i guess its safe to blog up here

unless i have a someone stalking me, and who's crazy enough to type in my name... ?!?!?

okay, what sparked off my sudden want to blog was today's game with anderson jc

sadly, we lost 30-34

and it may very much cost us to lose our ticket to the second round

we were THAT close

i would start on all the IF ONLYs and the WE SHOULD HAVEs

but those are just gonna pull my spirits down aint they

i cant believe this is the end

seriously, i had ALOT of hope and i saw tremendous potential in this team to go further. a very promising team

but alas, as if a curse unbroken, we lost yet again

the disappointment that came along with it, creeped in while i was pondering over the lost. the months of hard work and teething through the difficulties slammed at us, the biased treatments we were repeatedly receiving, the hard times where we had to stuggle, with no coach, to keep the team afloat, to pull the team in closer, an inch by an inch. the trainings. the entire saga. the effort. all gone. yes, the process of growing and overcoming the odds was memorable. i truly grew not just physically, but also emotionally and mentally stronger with the help of the team. but we didnt rise up to the occasion and emerge victorious in the end like how we envisioned ourselves to.

the teachers who came to watch our match. one by one, they left. who knew what they were thinking. were they touched by our resilience or were they simply unimpressed and thinking miss lim was overrating and over-inspired by our hwachong game?

to a small extent, its the teachers i dont want to disappoint. okay, to be slightly more precise, i dont want them to look down on us. showing our team spirit, efforts and resilience is one thing. but winning-- is a whole other. no matter how much we love the game, the entire process of going down and up together, and no matter how we hate to admit it-- its ultimately the winning that counts in the eyes of other people. and even though we may say that we do not care about how others see us, given how we have been labelled treacheously as a lousy sport with no achivements, how pragmatic will we get; and how far will we go if we do not show the school through these achievements that we have what it takes?

they so totally came down at the wrong time

well, thats all for today

i am praying and hoping very hard for a miracle to happen

and for the sake of the team, i want to end of with a smile. no matter what happens, i will leave no regrets for the team, for VJNB is love :)

2009-03-18T09:19:00.001-07:00

havent been updating in a while

i think i've come to this stage in life (lols) when blogging seems pretty pointless

meaningless to talk about various routines and my thoughts about people and their actions

showing my emotions in an awkward fashion through the net where strangers come and go without my knowledge, allowing people to know me through a very superficial way. after all, the blog can only capture whats myself at that moment. and im definitely more than what people get to read at that moment.

so thank you for the few pals who visit now and then and leave cute tags on your way out!

and this shall be my last post...

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(anw i need to ask something. can i delete a blog but still retain all my previous posts in my account??)
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netball march camp 2009!

it was secretly not a camp but a mini holiday (mixed with training, of course) we held using the school's name. HAA!

and i'll start with not the training but the food. yah, i said the food. the steamboat was great! it wasnt even that expensive but we could afford tons and tons of fishballs shabushabu and we totally spammed sausages like they were FREE. guess training really makes one tummy go mad and uncontrollable. YUMMMMM!

now, in a more serious tone, i would say training was fruitful and we managed to build up more chemistry between our players. intervals made us stronger and through that we will perservere and improve our agility and stamina. my stamina and shots were pretty disspointing and i have to admit i lost quite alot of fitness and the touch for shooting in the week preparing for commontest. so thats what i need to work more on for now

its good to have a team which is open to each other. no longer are we like that past where our thoughts are not being heard because we are afraid of being politically incorrect

well, more importantly, that was team bonding at its best. i cant ask for more from my teammates. they're the best. because as much as we have fun together in the silly things we do, we also work hard for what we are passionate about. we slept, we ate (yay), we talked, we played, we whacked, we gossiped (oops), we eyecandied, we ran we jumped we trusted and we cared. and i see we're gonna continue doing so.

so thank you team. may we be focused in this time, gain the compusure and shine in every game. lalalala <3

2009-02-28T06:48:00.001-08:00

x-country was complicated

i was rather happy over my performance. i really gave it all and got 66. thats a hundred plus positions better than last yr. maybe if i'd started out more front... nah~ but thats not an excuse

but it was still disappointing as a whole because netball didnt do well. i mean, i could see we didnt give our best. maybe a few did. but definitely not all. and i was disppointed since it was i, along with che, who came up with the list of people whom we thought would run well. i truly thought so. and even if we did give our best, we didnt manage to go far. our best was... sharrie, who was only position 40 i think ?

I WANT TO GO SENTOSA. play volleyball, captain's ball, drink java chip and eat tomyam ramen in koufu. kpttmqueen are you reading this?? and this time, i dont care if i get black. okay well, blacker, to be accurate, haha. since im reminded of it practically everyday by my dearest teammates and classmates. stop verbally abusing me, i dont deserve this kind of treatment! ahahahah. im going mad.

and please let CTs be a quickie, at least let me do badly gracefully this time round. a D would be nice. im not asking for much seriously. i just want to stop getting Es and Ss and spell the word SEEE all the time..

2009-02-26T05:42:00.000-08:00

that wangleehom song yining let me listen makes me want to cry

just the melody, not the lyrics

:(

2009-02-18T10:18:00.001-08:00

i think it is a sign when u just had the Connect session with your CT, and in the same afternoon, u check your mail and realize that in just one day, Brightsparks has brilliantly informed you of 3 scholarships-- each which offers you the opportunity to wander into the field you're interested in

there's the NEA one, and then the STB one, and the SIA one.

should i aim high? i dont see myself as a highflyer. but then again, i wouldnt know how far i can go unless i try

omg, the SIA one is damn cool. the bond is four years and theres vacation attachments.

actually, i dont have the slightest idea whats a vacation attachment, but doesnt it sound like alot more interesting with the "v" word attached to the "a" word?

2009-02-15T04:12:00.000-08:00

I SUDDENLY MISS MY X-FAMILY

so i cant wait for A's to be over, then i cant immerse myself in it ONE MORE TIME

thank goodness i bought the DVD

woosh!

2009-02-13T08:47:00.000-08:00

it felt so holiday-ish on friday the thirteenth, it killed the mood to study

Thor1 OGMs are so sweet, they have us umbrellas and wrote messages on them :)

the OG bbq was fun, and as usual, gossipy, haa!

trn 2mr early in the morning, zzz. i hope the J1s turn up. it irritated me to have some not turning up for lame reasons. i think we need to set the record straight. but at the same time, its crucial we be nice because we dont really want to end up with only 5 or 6 juniors because we scared the rest away?

whatever u ap people. hmph!

nites!

2009-02-09T06:37:00.000-08:00

kinda pissed cos my specs are crooked again

EVERYONE, and i mean EVERYONE has been wanting to adjust my specs for me but to no avail

i shall get another pair

and i was dumb enough to have my face being hit by the ball during one of my own shots. MY OWN SHOT. the ball went through the hoop and i frickin caught it with my face.

ouch

anyway, netball trials today. about 20plus people came. i didnt see any "wow" players. but the ones we shortlisted were pretty okay in their basics. so i bet theres more we can tap from them

its snr meet jnr 2mr. we're either gonna scare or bore the shit out of the juniors. heehee

off to do what i am supposed to chiong again....

hmmmm

nite :)

2009-02-08T06:26:00.000-08:00

omg omg omg

CHAMPS FOR DAISY TAN CARNIVAL !

good job girls, i hope we can continue striving this way and go far in season and let VJNB shine! im so happy because this is the EVER FIRST TIME in my entire life that netball has achieved something like that. and this is the first time i felt composure while playing the game. the first. and there's bound to be more. even tan yew hwee said this is a good change. it didnt sound very nice coming from him but i'll take it he meant to be encouraging, haha

netball trials 2mr ;)

so its another tiring but awsome day. its back to reality of tutorials and assignment (which i havent done) and i hope we juggle our responsibilities well. having season clash with common test is no joke

and i realized theres like 50 plus J1s from ahs. thats like super alot can

my face is peeling like i have skin disease. my lips are cracking like those patients lying in the hospital. i look so weird and even darker than before. argh dumb sea carnival. should have spammed sunblock

havent been watching mfbbt for the entire week. i think i shouldnt start since im kinda already off the addiction. someone remind me not to be obssessed.

oh KAMHEI if ur reading this, TUITION how??

gerry sorta sprained her leg. so we took cab (can claim taxi fare from the sch!) back to pasir ris, sent her up. then che and i went ehub to meet rach for dinner. i was so hungry the bland noodles tasted so darn good.

im turning my back on coffeebean already. the frap from starbucks is so much better. sry coffeebean! aniways, it was so good to just chill and talk and gossip about the weird people we met during orientation. hahaha. i hope things turn out well for rach because she seems so bothered by her life. but trust in yourself that you are a very capable person, because you've already showed to yourself, not to other, but yourself, that u can do so much. so dont breakdown too often. *winks* limit yourself to once weekly? haha stay strong girl ;)

sayo!

2009-02-06T22:00:00.000-08:00

FINALLY, this whole active week is over

i havent been spending my life this way since.... geee... i cant rmb??

and it's not that i couldnt wait for orientation to be over, but i was really short of energy towards the last few days

must. train. stamina.

and having training along with orientation was the best. woohoo. apparently orientation precedes over cca. and miss teoh was like saying she thought i wouldnt want to miss orientation for training. like hello, im in this team for a reason okay. im not yet gonna excuse myself when season is a month away for some one-off event like orientation. that was my choice, what can the school do, ignore my attendance for the other 4 days?

okae, even i myself dont get the gist of the rant above. mixed feelings i'd call it

i shant go into the details of orientation. i need to sleep

so just a few random stuff here and there

*ytd during the mass dance at the fountain of wealth, i ALMOST dropped my phone into the fountain while dancing whinniewhinnie by the railings. imagine the horror and the skipping of a heartbeat when i felt the landyard snap and saw the phone drop on the floor and skidded on the wet floor. OMG, thankfully it stopped sliding halfway along the length of the ledge!

*being the wet games master was kinda interesting but kinda tiring. because for the freshmen, u had to act high and super friendly while giving them points and bonuses. bleh. and what annoyed me the most were those groups who were super unhigh, i didnt know what to do with them when i announced in a super high pitch and retarded voice that they won 2000 points and they didnt even bother doing a sch cheer and say thankyou. not even a single woohoo or applause from them. i should have deducted points from them. then there was this idiotic guy who was supposed to take the pail and slash water onto the losing group. he was retarded enough to swing the pail with his own weight when he wasnt that strong. so he ended up flying, losing his balance, dropping the pail (he didnt get a single drop of water onto the losing team, btw), and knocking into the bench before him. u want to act smart also dont get the gamemasters into trouble by hurting urself can. apparently, gamemasters were suppose to ensure the safety of the freshmen. uh-huh

woah, that was long

haha, umm

*Thor was winning all the way until the 4th day. the wet games totally screwed us. we dropped from 1st to the 7th position. woah.

*i thought it was quite bad of us as seniors and ogls to make fun of some of the freshmen.. haha shant be too explicit over here, but yeah, it was funny listening to the nonsense of people like darrell and thomas

*made friends with most of the ogls. and even though we'd still just be hi-bye friends after orientation, the process was really hilarious and exciting.

*i've been reaching home late for the whole week. when my mum finally saw her daughter an hour earlier, she said i seemed to have lost weight. thats all to having only a tau-sah pau for breakfast, totally skip lunch and having dinner only late at night. plus all the cheering and stuff like that-- u bet.

*my OGMs are pretty cool. note that they were pretty dead and *im to cool to be caught cheering* on the first two days. so it was a funny thing to hear them telling jokes and making funny comments, and moaning (whom btw, was a guy) when we suggested we skip the mass dance after sea carnival so that we could bathe in sch. like, what the! two guys joined us on the second day and they were the sporty type so i was quite happy to have them in our group. wasnt being biased or anything, but it felt easier to get the conversation going that way, haha

*and anyway, two of the ogms are in my junior class. yup, one of them is the moaning one, and the other was from anglican too. hahaha im so gonna educate them all about jts, and gossip to them about the people in our classes

*and also, my sub-og ogls: they will never read this but i'll just make small note. kangan- some really skinny guy with a huge appetite. he laughs and cheers with no sound because he sorta lost his voice on the...gee 3rd day? lousy. and i was shocked when he was running during sea carnival because i couldnt believe that was his maximum speed, lols. anyway, he was our ic and without him i guessed we wouldnt have gotten the group organised and informed. alyssa- a friendly person with shining personality. she was the one getting the group together and urging them to initiate cheers. i think without her the group woulnt have been so spontaneous and sporting. i got to hear quite alot of gossip with girls around and tht is why us girls are always more fun to hang around with, hha. and lastly, mingxuan- rather quiet but the most thoughtful out of the 4 of us. like i finally conversed with him after being in the same sch for 4 years and sitting on the same table every morning for last year! he didnt want to get wet during sea carnival (okae, actually all of us didnt want to get wet) but finally alyssa and i were quite firm about the part when 2 of the ogls had to play the game with them, and it werent gonna be the both of us. my dancing partner! or so i could say, because evidently we werent very good at memorising the dance steps after so many attempts.

argh i gonna end off here

to rest and the chiong tutorial

theres just one thing which makes me wish that the week would countinue and not stop so soon. COMMON TEST!!

2009-02-03T05:21:00.000-08:00

the cheers are echoing in my head

"thats not my name. thats not my name"

arghhh

how terribly annoying, its making me drowsy and losing focus

gotta stay awake, gotta stay awake...gotta sssttt.... zzzzzz.. aayy! awake..

aniways, orientation was fun today too. not too draggy. but the cheering session by the red shirts were a little off. maybe that live-commentator guy talking on stage was suppose to sound so stern and inflexible when all the high freshmen and ogls were totally spoiling the newly build hall with our hardcore stomping and cheering

hmmmmmmm

well, im glad my ogms are the high type. well, most of them.

oh and and, the street netball thingy.. only 2 groups signed up!! and one of the groups actually consists of JTWOS. hello?? dont understand our annoucement that its for freshmen isit?? oh, but we will be needing the numbers so we shall be pragmatic and not chase them away, hahaha

well, sharrie seems to be getting her friends to join. and hopefully, cihui gets the anglican sports people to play as well. thats 4 :)

2009-02-02T05:03:00.000-08:00

wow a minute ago i almost choked on some chicken tendon and died

but i told myself to stay calm so that my muscles will relax and somehow release the tendon mass up my throat

okay that was kinda random. i just needed to remind myself i almost died

crazy day today. first day of orientation's gone like that in a whizz. phew

i dont even trust myself in keeping up being high for 2mr's programme, haha

it was quite fun playing the villian during the walk in. i had to psyche myself up, and convince myself to go all out for the role. ohwell, i dont think i did it that great but neither did i screw up considering i only whacked one rehearsal before the real thing. muahahahah i should reward myself with something nice

a new junior joined us for training today! its getting kinda weird to see our teammates and actually needing to count the numbers.

we're gonna organize a street netball carnival for the J1s on wednesday. we did it kinda last minute but so far we have prepared quite a lot. hopefully, people will sign up like buying hotcakes. and this will up the profile of netball, there may be more people going for trials. and if we get more juniors to join, vj netball wont be doing throgh the same saga this year or ever again!

tada!

chiong cse proposal!

ciao' =D

2009-02-01T01:45:00.000-08:00

i was just wondering

why?

started choking at 02:06

we blame when some decisions have been made wrong but we will never understand how hard they were to make

2009-01-27T05:37:00.000-08:00

first of all, HAPPY CNY to all my friends and family out there!

past few days have been thankfully relaxing and stress-free

well, because i chose to give myself a break from all the volume revolution cse i.s and gp responses shittttt

and now im half panicking cause i dont know which one to start on first, arghhh

hahaha, even though this years visiting is squeezed into only two very miserable days....

MY ANG BAO MONEY IS STILL NOT TOO BAD!

recession?? chey! grown ups still know how to make children and young adults happy!

and oh oh, a family friend from china came to singapore so i talked to her about lots of things from china, it was great experience, i really enjoyed that informal dialouge, though it was in chinese, i had to struggle to remember the correct hypy terms i read in class

AND AND, 2 years ago i went to wuhan and this darn wealthy family brought us around, they had a kid who was twice my width and double my weight (okae, maybe not double my weight, but DEFINTELY twice the width, hahaha), they are coming to singapore too. and to return the favour, my father will be bringing them around singapore this time, lols

poor dad, needing to sacrifice his holiday for people he dont know

we cant afford to treat them to the delicacies they treated us, so my dad's planning to bring them to eat roti prata and murtabak and other non-chinese stuff, hoping to package them as exotic local cuisine.

i can just imagine them eating the very very mean curry and my father offering to buy some bandung and introduce it as a very local drink which is made from rose syrup and milk!

hehe, maybe if the fatboy's dad is friendly enough after eating the curry, i can talk to him about some stuff. after all, whats better than a walking encyclopedia?

ba gua rocks my world :D

2009-01-22T03:28:00.000-08:00

rachel that mv on your blog has officially drove me crazy

kamhei got me this mug with the words "i will not obsess" printed bold on it

i SHOULD practice that

2009-01-21T07:16:00.000-08:00

i think i really am getting older

the signs?

am actually developing an interest in politics.

hell, politics

im listening to obama's inauguration speech now

and im kinda curious about the budget 2mr

hmmmma

2009-01-20T05:38:00.000-08:00

school was a bummer but the day ended off sweetly with retail therapy with che!

i'll rant about my day in sch later, but about the shopping.. we went to peninsula and che got her jeans. i decided im gonna get a backpack after all, cos dont think the team wants to get one. and the backpack is cheap, AND its not my own money im spending anw! i was hoping to get the vintage white one with the camera prints, but it was sold out :(

got myself a wallet/purse too.. now i dont have to use my fake lesportsac one when i go out, haa. plus i grabbed some top from whitesands before i head home. just gotta get something to wear for the sake of spending the money!

hmm.. so at the end of the day, i still didnt get the pants i had in mind.. hmmm

oh school was... zzzzz sleeepy like crap. this the first time i dozed off during lectures since sch reopened. bernice had to poke me awake, hahaha

and i still have my GP essay to complete larh, followed by chem tut.... oh shit, and bio tys questions too! damn

so thats it, im ending here :)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

aniwaes, i'll talk abit on how i spend my birthday

from what i can rmb.. hmm... had a game with rjc at kallang early in the morning. my shots were so crappy. and i seriously can shoot tons better whenever im not playing on court. and then the girls celebrated for me with a fruitcake and gave me the something thats on my WANTED list. yuppp, a lunchbox!! lols, now i just have to figure what im gonna bring to school for lunch :)

had subway with che ning and mao. and then, NOT surprisingly with ning around, we decided to have dessert at this snow shavings shop, where they so generously treated me to some :DDD

and im not gonna believe this but i actually spent my aftnn in the bugis NLB for my cse research. it was so funny cos we werent supposed to bring bags into the reference area AND note to self that my red adidas sling was THAT long. how was u suppose to squeeze it into the tiny locker they provided? well, actually i managed to close and lock the locker door in the end, haa

and that was where we met yinhong. and cheryl. and i heard after i left they met chrystal. haa! cse IS research day for all of us! never felt so responsible about homework in my entire life before. doing research on my birthday when i should be celebrating! at least there were friends around to make the reading not so heavy hearted.

yupp, and then i made my way to tsesee's hosue (phew, this is getting retardly long). hann and zixi were so dumb, they tried to hide away from me using their umbrella. 200bucks it was hann's idea. and we went off to buy cake and stuff for the party!

thanks che for organising such fun games. haa! mr.pig is tons more fun than signal can!

and of course we just HAD to cam-whore with people like huixin and han around. gosh i need to ask, can the pics downloaded onto facebook be seen by all your friends! i look darn black and oily in 99% of the photos im getting depressed and anorexic. arghhh tsesee you have to change the lighting in your house!!!

love ya rach, for the msn personal msg even though well i might not have went online to see it, hahaha. and your present which you are gonna give me SOON (ahem, yeah soon!!)

thanks to all my friends who sent smses to wish me too! :) well, most of ou wont be reading this i guess.. but thank you guys anyway. im hyperventilating now. and those who wished me personally even on monday, yesterday and today. makes it feel like birthdays stretches up to 72hours (n n,)

okay, i think im done. thats bascially what i can remember. birthdays are always the days where you feel blessed and loved. i cant be grateful enough for all ya special people around. love ya guys ;)

2009-01-19T06:40:00.000-08:00

i need to rant a little bit first before starting on my proposal

it sounds so shallow, but i wouldnt mind swopping with my maid for a day or two

for goodness sake, minusing the pretty sad part where she' separated with her family, she leads a rather good life!

when i reached home at 9pm, she was already sleeping. yes, RETREATING TO BED AT NINE OKAY. and sometimes, i wake her up when i wake up for school.

and when we all go out for work and school she has the whole house to herself, and who knows whats shes doing, or not doing, at home

she doesnt need to go marketing. all she needs to do is to write down on a slip of paper what groceries are used up and by the next day it will be replenished

my parents allow her to go out at 5pm everyday to go fetch my sibs even though they end sch at 6pm, just so she can INTERACT with friends

she has an employer who is crazy enough to PICK UP HER MOTHER TONGUE just so she doesnt need to learn english

oh whatever, i should learn to count my blessings too

hmmm

i am given an opportunity to higher education. i have a wonderful proposal to rush by 2mr. okae thats my fault since i could have made better use of sunday. Biology is driving me crazy. like the knowledge is so interesting to hear, but then its a different story when u have to memorise and explain it on paper.

oh, sidetrack by a bit: mr toh cut and dyed his hair. he looks so much more alive and interesting now, hahahah

i probably burn more calories than her. umm, thats good i guess, considering i gained like 3kg in a year?

i dont have to incur debts so that i can leave my country to find work so that i can pay off these debts before i remit the remainder to my family. instead, i am completely and shamefully financially dependent on my parents.

i understand chinese and HENCE, am able to fully immerse myself in mfbbt culture and humour, HAA!

theres lots more blessings to count, but i think i'll just stop here. urgh, ciao'!

2009-01-14T06:04:00.000-08:00

schools not going very well

or rather, i dont think im handling the stress and pressure well enough

plus, trainings is both physically and mentally demanding

hello. and its only the 3rd day damn it

i dont know if we as a team will do well. i think the school's really bent on closing a few sports cca down. just not our year

and thats just added pressure for us to perform.

to just play for fun and forget all the pressure to perform? i dont think so. thats not what we said we wanted

yupp, thats all for tonight. lets go study!

three more days :)

actually its already kinda mundane to me after the past 17 times. im just looking forward to spending my time with friends who care.. catching up, have fun. yay :)

i think im gonna buy 4D or Toto, lols see first

2009-01-13T04:04:00.000-08:00

remember this video ms zarinah showed us?

haha i stumbled upon it!

this one tickled me alot too!

2009-01-11T08:07:00.000-08:00

i cant believe i spent 2 months procrastinating about my proposal

and then..

spent the last 3 hours of my holidays COMPLETING IT!!!!!!

genius

what can i say!

lalalal~~ back to sleep!

2009-01-11T04:03:00.000-08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i dread :(

2009-01-09T06:43:00.000-08:00

never been so tired for a long time. i dont think im even gonna try starting on my proposal at 11pm cause right now, heck sleep is more important

played like shit today. its not nice at all to be unfamiliar with things. and goodness i fell on my butt. ON MY BUTT! while holding the ball! damn shit. so its either i familiarise my new position within 3months or i hope really really bad that there are shooters coming in from the J1 batch.

anw i'll get things figured out soon

and darn that mr toh. to think he announced that there wont be any bio holiday assignments, and i was applauding him for that. AND THEN, just today he got yinhong to msg us to do the mitosis tutorial so that he can go through during lessons

hello?? november and december is 废 for you to tell us isit? TOO LAST MINUTE LE LARH. i mean, i'll try to find some time but he cant blame me if i dont manage to do it

done ranting. gonna go relax in the massage chair now

boy i need some eyecandy therapy. the last time i had it... yesterday? dont know how im gonna make time for my mfbbt once school reopens, darn

and i wonder whens gonna be my next self-declared break

well... in 8more days perhaps :)

"Well," said Pooh, "what I like best--" and then he had to stop and think. Because although Eating Honey was a very good thing to do, there was a moment just before you began to eat it which was better than when you were, but he didn't know what it was called.

-- A.A. Milne, from The House at Pooh Corner

hahahah

2009-01-08T04:29:00.000-08:00

im taking my fifth break from working on my proposal now! look how unaccomplished i am

zzz

during my previous break, i downloaded xiaozhu's latest album. baidu is getting dumber by the minute. can someone provide me with another source?

and wth, sorry to say this, may i have pimples on my face for being such a bad fan, but xiaozhu's 潮男正传 album is so dissapointing. why? instead of focusing on vocals which he HAS been improving consistently with his albums (舞所不在 actually had a fair share of good songs), this new album has too much of the digitally-enhanced techno stuff. wth, xiaozhu you cant go the techno road, thats for artistes like guomeimei who has 6 or more techno versions of the same song in one album. no offence to guomeimei fans.

argh

and im back to the jiro craze again =D

the craze didnt even take much to hit me. i was just watching 54 and he was in this mv pushing some shoppingcart and wearing pyjamas.. oh what can i say~

and then there's liquan XD

and jiantu..

of course wont forget weilian

oh why is weilian so small... heres another one! hahah!

because i am temporarily disappointed in xiaozhu, there shall be no picture of him!!! muahahahaha. aniwaes, who doesnt know how he look like so it doesnt matter

lols, my apologies to my sudden huachi-ness. hell, im doing you girls a favour by introducing some taiwanese eye-candy so THANK ME!!!

guess its time to get back on that proposal before i give it up altogether

theres gonna be another friendly 2mr. there wont be alot of people so i think its gonna be hell a game. lots of luck and positive energy!

hope i wont run out of stamina THAT fast and that my movements wont be THAT constrained in the circle animore after the help che and suni gave me. hope i wont fall down cause ever since im in jvnb, i've been accident prone to all parts of my body.

oh btw, 2days ago we were at the airport studying. and i spent the entire day on 30 chem mcqs. kudos! and then we went to send ms TAY off. asked her how shes gonna spend the entire year in aust, was she planning to take on a job or what. and she just gave this coy smile and say she's just gonna stay at home and watch tv. lols, what can i say. so all we inferred.. glad she married a rich husband!

and yesterday, aft trn i just head home and on the bus ride i was suddenly itching to spend some money. and to justify my craving for retail therapy, i DID work for 4.5 days and earned a salary. even though i already wasted away at least half of it, i technically still have half of it left, right? AND, everyone needs to wear new clothes for AT LEAST the first day of cny, right? and since i sorta self-declared semi financial independence, i didnt want to get the money from my nya and tia.

there, JUSTIFIED (!)

and so yeah, i spent some money on certain essentials. felt great. havent been doing that for the pass whole year i think?? gosh it was about time

ciao'!

2009-01-05T01:12:00.000-08:00

i like this quote

"if the misery of the poor be cause not by the laws of nature but by our institutions, great is our sin" -- Charles Darwin

2008-12-29T07:06:00.001-08:00

bought my strawberry melts

aint that great, i wasted $3.20

darn the attractive packaging

i think it was 2 days ago at astons when we had our belated x'mas dinner. linda got her knee operation. the braces look so cool on her leg. hehe take care girl! dinner was pretty good.. but of course we were craving for desserts so cher joined us only later at the iceshaving shop, which i must recommend cause its really good.

flavourful iceshavings with generous heaps of toppings, wide variety. reasonable price at that too! it beats the GoodLobang Ice Shaving stall at parkway lorh

i think at the end of every year, I'll try to sit down and have a good quick reflection of everything i rmb having accomplished the entire year.

and..

jan
stepped into vjc. wanted to see what there was in store for me. orientation bored the hell out of me due to my rather antisocial nature. headaches during cheering sessions. made new friends. conversed with che after a long period of cold war. we got through netball trials. my first 3.3km. my first 1minute static hold. decided to go for the netball farewell dinner. birthday :) drama on o'lvl results release day. crazy woman in teoheng. liked chenyiru from farenheit (wth)

feb
CNY! first hawaiin porkchop. 175 for cross country. rach locked us out of her house on valentines. my first 8km. my first yingshao with cheemongers. totally gave up on my 02 group and crashed other groups. cse scares me. first game with vjnb. realized liking chenyiru is too much of a sacrifice to make.

march
cameron highlands and vegetables. first time in a long time since i saw so many stars. learnt how to Crush People's Ribs with classmates. and then i cant really rmb what happened. lots of training with the seniors i guess

april
netball groupings out. season starts. emotional roller-coaster. felt wasted and misunderstood. i actually have feelings for this new team. season ends. missed BnJ free cone day.

may
blank. cant rmb anything

june
middle kingdom. and not a clue how i spent my hols

july
SLV and sherman the shuaige! got 200 ahs juniors to complete pw survey. bluffed suni i used to have ED. our successful pw interview with dr.kumu. my first niece :)

august
vjnb exco (it was about time). treasurer. dumbass connect singapore. beijing olympics during huixins steamboat dinner. second attempt at grade8 piano.

sept
netball saga. lost a vicecap and a member. 2nd time i cried in the year for the same reason. sentosa with little sun, i like.

oct
secretly read sis's diary. her boyfriend is timothy and their son is patrick the starfish. bought my first 3 books of the year. preferred mike and jacob black to edward cullens, despite everybody else's protests. scripted my first skit for op. left 100plus bucks worth of stuff on the bus. end of op

nov
pw's officially history. first movie alone with sibs...

ARGHH im tired, dont want to do liaos, heh

and i dont even want to mention academics. it was a bummer

2008 seems to be a rather plain, or should i say wasted year. yes, i've learnt alot from a new environment, peers, responsibilities and challenges.. but disappointingly, i got my experiences mostly through the mistakes i made, opportunities i gave up and the time i allowed to slip pass. that shouldnt have been the case since i knew 2008 would be a year considered as a turning point in life, and a tough one at that too. I wanted to give myself the entire year to think about my goals, aspirations, that kinda thing.. but so far... no such luck.

im entirely blank

2008-12-26T03:57:00.000-08:00

finally, we went to the lerk thai buffet

it was not bad.. better than seoul garden.. but quite little variety. plus alot of the food was deep fried and starch. they took out alot of good stuff from the menu. we couldnt enjoy the tomyam soup or the chicken wrapped in banyan leaves etc..

AND I AM SURPRISED I ATE SO LITTLE

but the chendol and tapioca were GOOD

crazy man

hahaha, went with rach and minjie

yay im gonna get my second x'mas present 2mr from rach. my first was a lava lamp from my cousin, haha. and dont complain animore i treated you to part of your buffet kae!

i cant believe i let mj persuade me into setting up a facebook account.. i dont know why im there... hahaha. im such a noob at these kinda things. they say can share pictures so i figured i better start koping pictures now so that i can look back at time ten years down the road..

does it work that way? the sharing of pictures part?

aiyah, dunno larh

training was rather slack today. eirene came and train us. i know i shouldnt be thinking this way, but i dont want miss teoh to come down for lesser trainings (even when we are just doing fitness) just because eirene is here to help her with training us. just gotta trust in her she wont i guess, by proving it to her that we very much want to do well.

the only crux is that we cant really prove it that obvious cause i dont see it in all of us

i dunno, with eirene its definitely much more beneficial. she pushes us for more, that kinda thing. but i dun really like the idea of becoming dependent on a senior when we have a coach and especially when we are supposed to be motivated without external pushes

guess not

ARGHH, my independent studies, two of them! gotta start quick

and im starting on my piano soon... i dunno what to do, what to expect.. initially i wanted to stop piano totally and only start on my grade8 after A'lvls.. and that seems so far away. i know there's a really high chance of me wanting to give up after avoiding it for that long. my cousin is really kind.. so selfless.. she wants to carry on with lessons but without exam pieces the whole of next yr so that i wont get rusty..

i thought that she would have already given up on me. there's really no reason to continue teaching me. she has a baby, a family. and neither am i gifted nor that hardworking to make up for my lack of talent.

stress sia. thinking of entering the exam rom for the THIRD time and having the gut feeling im not gonna do well

haix.... just let me sigh for a while. havent been doing for a while now

im craving for strawberry melty kisses now :)

for tomorrow.. training in the morning.. and dinner with some of the girls.. dunno how im gonna kill the free time i have in btwn.. should i go library and check out some books for my IS?

rach suggested astons for dinner.. and my prediction? we will be seeing a loooong queue

haa speaking of astons. i am finally not so deprived cos i tried it a few days ago with gabriel and charmaine. is that how u spell her name. aiyah, should bring my dad there one day. cos the blackpepper sauce 真的不是盖的 ! Portion a little too small though. i honestly believe i can have 2 portions, haa :D

one whole post dedicated to food yet again -.-

and oh, another prediction. my rheumatism's working up again, so there's gonna be rain tonight or 2mr morning!

ciao!

2008-12-20T04:22:00.000-08:00

had a 3hour nap

i couldnt rmb what i was dreaming about but i thought it was something good so i just didnt want to wake up and have dinner

cos i might come face to face with my dad, whom i just fought with ytd night. about the dumb washing machine. it was so totally not my fault. but i guess i shouldnt have hurled vulgarities. that was the first time. AND IT FELT GREAT, actually.

and what the hell my mother wants to have a steamboat 2mr night for dongzhi

aniwaes, training has been going on for 3days in a row. its like, my life now. the sec4 cedarians joined us for training 2day. it has been a long time since i last played an actual game, it felt great to run and run with so much control over self. please dont let us drop back to what we were a few months back, now that most of us are back for training already.

what can i say about my holidays except that i've been spending time the wrong way. i've not done most of my assignments, i've not started on any of the bio revision, i've not been catching up with my friends..

it has been so long since i talked and ate with them.. sorry if i havent been keeping in contact. im just.. tired of planning and intiating stuff, tired of smsing and talking over the phone, tired of going on to msn. i sort of like being stagnant the way i am now.. sticking with whats already laid out in front of me.. training tuition and other appointments.. im long over the craziness of a teenager who plans outings every single week, i guess.

yeh, that kinda thing.

woah, and im only 17 going to 18. *ahem, 27 more days

speaking of which, i already know whats my schedule. im gonna spend half of the day in school. and its fricking saturday!

and nope, im not even going to contemplate about missing trn and all the ogl stuff.. that would be kinda lousy of me

...

right?

and i trust that we are all doing fine with our commitments at the moment. i sense that we all have our own little barriers which we're struggling with. but things are like that. overcome them, thats what we need to do. take things in your control and make it your responsibility to turn things around.

sayo :)

2008-12-15T06:08:00.000-08:00

so we finally started on the seniors farewell gifts!

haha im doing clara's one. hope i dont screw the piece up. im onto the most colourful, conspicuous and tough part already. oh please, no hiccups, im not a very patient person when it comes to doing dainty things!

and okae i feel quite guilty, cos i only managed to turn up for ogl training when it was the sea reagetta trials.

and i only lingered about for say.... about 20minutes bah~~ until i realize we were going to play tugofwar in the sea and i super didnt want to. but i couldnt tell the guys in my subgroup the *ahem reason was that i couldnt get my lower body wet so i said i gotta go like a loser and baid them goodbye

lols, so paiseh leh. but i hope they turn up 2mr so that i wont be alone. omg-- alone doing mass dance and cheer.....?

money money money..

i guess it aint really a recession for my parents cos they just bought a new dvd recorder can

i cant believe i am actually busy with things. well its just about time cos i already finished watching all the past mfbbt episodes

nite :)

2008-12-11T04:48:00.000-08:00

slacky day today again

went seoul garden with che and zixi

and that will probably be the last time im patronising it

even though the branch at bugis did some upgrading and changed the stove from fire to electrical, they stupidly didnt do anything to improve their ventilation system

we smelt real badly after the food

and i didnt eat alot either.. no value for money, really

aiyah, no more money le larh. at least i restrained myself from buying yet another 10 dollar shirt from bugis. haa

i survive on 25bucks a week okay. and i calculated, everytime i go training, i spend at least 2bucks on transportation and another 4 on lunch. and since i train 4times a week, i should be able to save a pathetic dollar

WOW

so i take back the words i mentioned on recession having little impact on students

i secretly think my mum conveniently doesnt want to give me allowance

and wth, i got scolded by my dad just now for steaming 8 xiaolongbaos to add more dish to dinner

AND SO, i shall conclude that they are indeed suffering from the recession and i shall stop thinking about whether to ask them for money.

farewell gathering is on the 17th. xmas gathering on the 21st. vjnb x'mas gift exchange. ALL NEED MONEY. how???

2008-12-06T05:45:00.000-08:00

today's really quite special cos it wasnt a day wasted on youtube and naps

haa! training was THE most interesting ever since the start of the holidays, im not kidding, cos we actually got to touch the ball ON the court.

but it was rather slack training with the club

oops, haha probably due to the really large numbers, haha. just not used to it yet

this is what i need. something like a sugar rush

and june came down today :)

geraldine and cihui are joining next week. haha that will be nice. dunno about geraldine, but i heard cihui got 100 for amaths or something so she shouldnt be wasting it by coming to vj, bleh!

and then the darn OM, whoever he is, didnt allow the cleaners to unlock the toilets. im sure he has his reason, but i wasnt about to go shopping after training WITHOUT my shower

thankfully he did all the sports people a favour and it was unlocked finally

ate tomyam seafood again. omg im hooked. the hawker at parkway is not bad. though it still aint up to 85's standards when it comes to price and deli, but the cleaners there are like bboys listening to their ipods and clearing dishes like they are dancing (haa!) so they make u feel very upbeat and refreshed when they clear your table. when u say thank you they cant really hear u also so u dont need to thank them at all, lols!

went to peninsula plaza with rachel. i seriously think we got the wrong place cos it was selling all the wrong stuff. and it sounded really different from how other people described it to be.

but oh well, the important thing is that I DIDNT BUY ANYTHING in the end

but i spend all my money on food

typical

ALSO, we chanced upon this ad about BnJ's CHUNK FEST held in fort canning while resting in starbucks. so we tried to find our way there. and ohmy, it was like amazing race

clarke quey, boat quey 傻傻分不清楚

we took a bus from Central shopping mall heading for SMU. but 30seconds after the bus took off, we were already pass fort canning

LOLS

ate chippy's fish n chips, it was good

argh, so much for my 禁忌. cant i be more disciplined? this is not a laughing matter really :(

and zixi's back from taiwan! haha i think the same as rach (has to mention someone else's name, if not will sound very kiam siap). she sure never buy anything for us again, heh

okae larh, to be fair she did buy a mouse pad for me the other time she went somewhere, heh

tuition 2mr! differentiation!

and i received my first pay cheque alreaydy! i will officially have 33bucks in my cpf account 2mr. wow

ciao!

2008-11-30T21:55:00.000-08:00

i just love my family, mfbbt and tudou!!1

muahahaha

they just bought TWENTY FOUR packets of my favourite tomyam and hot&spicy seaweed!

omigosh

and tudou has all the 2006 episodes of mfbbt

lalalalaa~~

so im off!!

2008-11-24T02:13:00.000-08:00

guess what, only che and i turned up for training this morning. so it really was a good thing miss teoh hasnt returned.

and che sprained her leg while we were doing movements in the circle

so training was really short and sweet

hmmmm

bleaughh... i think im a volcano which will erupt pretty much any time now

im so sick of this. its so easy to give up. i want to do that. i can so easily let go of EVERYTHING, and bear the consequences fairly easily, just with alot of guilt but only for the first few months. there has been this little voice at the back of my head telling me to do that, let go of the team cos they dont look like they want it badly, and you probably dont want it that badly too. maybe i have just been deceiving myself. what are the odds?

ARGHHH but i cant make myself do it. i will be letting myself down, if not the others who dont actually want to give up.

its like im hanging by a thread

i need strength to continue. but there's not much for me to tap on. the team is just not there. i mean, i know its temporary.. one or two more weeks perhaps. but we have been through one saga after another. its supposed to make us feel stronger, more united.

i dont see that

its reflecting our flaws wide and open. that we are a weak team with little strength. that we dont contribute enough to builiding it. we dont expect much in return anyway.

and all i can do is rant up here :(

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aniwaes, i spent the whole afternoon in mos in hope to complete my maths, though im still left with lots of uncompleted parts. dreading to do functions and graphs. *hates*

treated myself to aunt anne's. i miss its lemonade :p

and just an attempt to make a point that i am not a total no-life person (haha)....

i am going out 2mr!

not work, not training, not anything to do with vjc or tuition.

wahahahaha. finally

and i get to wake up late 2mr

so NUA larh. but who doesnt like that :D

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i came up with a NEEDs and WANTs list not too long ago.. haha and i realized most of them are under the NEEDs category. i dont really feel the recession, and my parents havent really mentioned anything to me but i just wanted to be nicer to their pockets..

NEEDS.....

*FBTs (so that i dont have to wear damp ones every morning i have training)
*Thick, better quality socks (those pairs i bought from China are giving my toes blisters everytime i dodge)
*Small brush/comb (quite a few teeth broke off from my last one)
*Stapler (i suspect my siblings stole mine)
*and lots of other new stationery to start off the new year
*a new facial wash
*a dress appropriate for wedding dinner (this is clearly a need cos my cousin's getting married in dec, hahahaha)
*a new pair of court shoes. (this new saucony pair really aint good)

and then there are WANTS...

*lunchbox (lols, i dunno why. but every girl needs her own nice and colourful lunchbox)
*a nice scarf. mabe that club marc one? that length larh (lols, in hot and humid singapore)
*flats
*denim
*mos burger keychain (haha, cute)
*bodyshop body butter
*lappy (2 years later it will become a need, hehe)

haha cant think of animore. ciao!

2008-11-23T06:36:00.001-08:00

just finished my steamboat dinner

ahhh~~ salmon shabushabu, thats how it is :D

and was watching the mediacorp 45anniversary show. too bad most of the male artistes who i like didnt turn up. oops! one went to be a monk and the others.. i dunno, hmmm

and i finished my last day at work yesterday. P1 ORIENTATION! it was the most fulfilling working day ever cos i was attached to this teacher and i had to help her take care of the new P1 kids in her class.

and that was also the first time i had to comfort crying (wailing) kids. omigawd

there was this boy who kept crying and that admin person was so evil to push him to me. you can imagine me giving him the *hellllp!* and exasperated face while he scooted away and pretended to be busy... lols! that little kid just didnt want to be separated from his dad. and both his dad and i were so helpless and embarassed by his wailing. hilarious!

and just as i thought everything was over when that boy finally made friends with this other boy who had the same coloured shirt, THIS GIRL IN PINK BEGAN TO CRY. damn, damn what now!

then i had to talk in that gentle and KIDDY tone *cringes* and say "you so pretty dont cry, your mommy waiting for you in the hall.. oh what is the hall? the hall is that wooden place you sat on the floor just now... yah, smart girl.. come you want to hold my hand? yay!!!" that kinda thing.... bleaugh...

that was so not me (i know people like yeehan and rach are laughing larh huh. whatever!)

hahahaha

but anyways, kida are really quite adorable. but irritating and totally spoilt. what happened to the kneeling and bottlecaps and book-smacking methods?

and i have to say, there was this P2 kid who was there as a helper who was so kawaii neh~~ lols, wanted to take picture budden that would have scarred his childhood memories for eternity bah, haa!

the day ended pretty fast. we worked only 4hours but i still hope we will be paid 50 bucks? nah~ since the OM is so stingy

but the vp was really nice.. and appreciative of our help, although i really think we didnt do much. and she just emailed us and asked if we would like to continue

if it was loyang primary i might have considered larh huh. im sick of taking lrt and the red line for a while now. so im just gonna politely decline her :)

then that will be about it

oh, and miss teoh is back from sikim.

i dunno what emotion should be appropriate :S

nites :)

2008-11-20T06:46:00.000-08:00

17 days to my first pay day!

and 2 more days to my last day of work

yupps, cant wait for it, haa!

yes i am working on a saturday in a primary school at chuachukang that area. cos its orientation day for the cute little notorious kids

i am going to freak them out

muahahaha

and today i spent the whole 8hours of work sitting on the chair (on my way to achieving big butt, haa!) and transferring a hard copy of "Emergency and Safety Handbook" into soft copy.

i dont believe it. the school is paying me for this kind of brainless (but still quite tiring) work.

cant the OM just ask nicely from the other school to send him a soft copy rather than just photostating a copy of the handbook?! sheesh!

thats about it for today. im still bored and will remain to be i perceive since i calculated training will remain about this way for a few weeks

nite :|

2008-11-19T07:48:00.001-08:00

ok so i didnt start on tuition homework as i have planned

instead i watched ytd's mfbbt and kangxi, plus past mfbbt episodes

im hooked.. again!

theres this new didi in mfbbt who recently i think is quite cute. weilian is threatened, lols

and i started my own downloading craze, even download ENGLISH songs

engish songs leh

haha looks like my angmoh pai vjnb girls have this teeny weeny bit of influence. even though i havent seen most them in weeks now

realized i havent download all of xiaozhu's songs from 舞所不在

wahlau what kind of fan am i? lols, first i dont even buy his album. and to make it worst, i dont even illegally download them

bleh

found out my og group already. am in Thor, whatever that is, lols. the only people I know who's from Thor are gabriel and the ncc guy mingxuan. who is one of my partners. gosh i've never talked to him in my whole life even though we sit at the same table every morning and have attended the same school for close to 5years, lols!

life seems pointless these few weeks. im waiting for it be over, just cant stand it

training is really pointless. it seems more like my own workout to keep toned instead of training.

work is equally as bad cos... well, haha theres nothing much to do. and the things we do are so pointless! and the travelling is really starting to get to me, haa!

boring boring boring. i've recently lost the will to talk and joke. see how serious this is

please everybody come back so that we can assume normal training, zzzz

-.-

2008-11-16T08:14:00.000-08:00

lalala~ for a very rare moment i am glad i made the correct decision to go out on a lonely sunday to settle my dinner

haha cos got FLEA MARKET at tm!

went with rach to TM for dinner. would have went downtown instead if it werent for the fact that she had to buy shoelaces for this guy cos she accidentally went to throw away his old laces...

lols, good thing u lost them. if not we wouldnt have seen the flea market!!

umm lets see..

this uncle very nice. i bought earsticks from him at the usual price of 1dollar.. budden he say girll take another packet, i give u FREE

WAH~~~ zhuan dao!

then this other shop got alot of clothes.. haha bought this semi formal skirt at ONE DOLLAR

though its second hand..... BUT ONE DOLLAR LEHS~~

we saw alot of korean outfits.. those very greyish and undertone kinda blouses.. love them, love the colours, so understated and subtle, but too bad they aint selling at flea-market prices.. haa!

next time probably :)

training 2mr! sian larh, only che and i going.. if it aint for the need to report to the soccer coach i would have just rebelled and self-declare training is cancelled or smt lohs

hmm.. feel like slow jogging 8km.. but maybe not hehe

im starting on holiday assignments 2mr. whos with me!

i think i am weird. no matter how i actually claim to hate the underpaid hours and long travelling, i cant wait to go back to work again. it makes me feel... purposeful.. not-empty.. if u know what i mean

haha talking to yinhong online. about the young scientist projects we used to do during primary schools. projects then were so fun and intersting.. and SIMPLE. i could spend the whole day drawing flowers, collecting leaves, penning poems on birds, reading encyclopedias and not feel sian because everything was so new and interesting to me

now.. i just want to get my IS proposals over and done with

hmmmm

toodles zzz

2008-11-14T05:51:00.000-08:00

my sis just won a huge barney in her school lucky draw

it talks

its probably the only purple thing that i find disgusting

*shudders

2008-11-11T05:58:00.000-08:00

work today

so we did the unimportant stuff which the teachers wont bother doing

i personalized 240 badges with each student's name on it

TWO HUNDRED FORTY okae

dont play play

and i earned 50bucks. which means i was only paid 5.50 an hour. which i suppose is good enough. not alot but not little too

suni cant work anymore cos she needs to apply at MOM before she can start work. which is going to take weeks to process anyway. haha means she worked for the whole of today for free. poor girl

we were punching badges all the way. it was brainless yet tiring. haha who knows why. lucky kids, the school pays jiejies like us to punch graduation badges for you all. and i bet you will throw them aside once your given yours, grrr

and lunch sucked. so much for nice and cheap primary school foood

first time in my life i took the LRT today. took pictures. upload some other day. the windows are cool, they become opaque whenever the carriage passes by HDB flats to give the people their privacy

and andrea and suni were teaching the primary school kids how to dance. i should have videotaped it down. andrea was so cute doing those moves, hahaha

still got training 2mr. stages PLUS happiness. misteoh really has it going for us

thats all for tonight. BYE